A Life of Trauma and Tragedy (Possibly Triggering Content)

[Emelia8]

Thanks so much to @Clawde @Appleblossom @Peri @Bow @Former-Member @outlander @Anastasia for your messages today. Much appreciated.

@Former-Member... thanks, I kept trying the Help Centre Chat tonight and finally get onto someone at about 9.10pm. The counsellor was really good and stayed chatting to me until well after the 10pm closing time. They suggested I call again, either the chat or the phone line.  To use it as a bit of a stop gap in the lead up to the anniversary, in the absence of my own psych.  I found it helpful, so I will see what I can do over coming days.

Off to bed now.  Good night everyone.

Emelia 💞💤

[Anastasia]

Em that is good news about the help centre, proud of you 🤗💕

I hope that you were able to get some sleep last night 🤞🙏

I never asked...was Pilates good? What you expected?

So glad Holly now has the stitches out and the swelling is going down, what a relief. 🐾🐕💕

Day 5...

Not a quote but this made me think of our friendship @Emelia8

[Bow]

So glad to hear that you managed to speak with someone last night @Emelia8 and that it was helpful. They are so lovely and helpful at the help centre here. Hope today is a little better for you. Do you have many plans? 
🤗💕

[Snowie]

Good morning my sweet @Emelia8 

Hoping today is a little better for you hon.

Lots of love and hugs 💜💜💜

[Emelia8]

Good morning @Bow and thank you for your advice and support. Yes the therapist I got on the Chat last night was very nice, didnt make me feel like I was wasting their time, and urged me to come back again anytime. Especially while my clinical psych is unavailable and while I have this horrible anniversary coming up with triggers all around me. So its nice to know I can call on them for help when I need it. I do wish they were there outside of the 10am to 10pm however. Often its those early morning hours which are the hardest, when you wake from damaging nightmares which makes you think you are back there all over again.

I had no plans for today, expecting it to be a quiet day. Its very wet here today, with heavy rain expected off and on all day. So a good day to be indoors. However I got a call about an hour ago from the home modifications people to say they will be out soon to finish the home modifications that my husbands occupational therapist recommended. They did some of them last week, but needed to order some specially made hand rails etc. They will finish tap and shower modifications today as well as several hand rails in showers and a grip handle at a set of steps in the house (we have split level in one area), and a second rail outside from driveway to path. So I am expecting him soon.

Thank you @Snowie ... Despite a very disturbed sleep last night, I am feeling marginally better today so far thanks. Hope your day is an improvement on the past few as well. Love and hugs back.

Ahhh lovely ... I love that meerkat pic @Anastasia. Thanks so much. Yes it is a major relief that Holly is doing well now. Her scars are healing so well now. Gosh better even that what mine did I think. 😊 No, sadly sleep wasnt good. But so far I am managing reasonably well this morning. Was to be a 'nothing day', but that changed with the call from the home mods people as explained above. My one and only day without medical commitments or appointments. Oh well. Perhaps a nothing day would have been bad for me anyway?

Yes thanks ... the pilates class on Tuesday was great. I really enjoyed it. Sorry I didnt report earlier ... it kind of got pushed to the back of my mind after my subsequent oncologist apt afterwards and then my cancelled psych appointment. So there were 3 of us, the instructor was very good. Supervised each of us individually and specific exercises and equipment for each depending on their abilities and needs. The other two people were ladies too. One about my age, the other slightly older. The one my age is very fit and healthy looking, the other one not so much. So I guess I'm somewhere in between. I am booked to go again next Tuesday, which thankfully was apt free. He didnt work me too hard, but enough to know I'd been working muscles and joints that hadnt had much use for a while. Just a bit sore in spots yesterday and today. But a healthy sort of soreness, if you know what I mean.

Myboy I think you are in the office today ... I hope your work day is going well. Love you more, my beautiful friend.

Hi @Clawde ... hope your day is a good one.

Emelia 💞🤗🐶🍀

[WIP]

Hi @Emelia8 

I hope today is a touch better for you.

Thinking of you and all you're going through.

Glad the helpcentre were helpful last night - did you call them, or use the online chat service?

I think I need to put a call into them, but I'm scared.

Love WIP xx

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[Appleblossom]

A few years ago I spoke on the chat service and found them good @WIP . If you feel the need, give it a go.

Stay Safe you are alredy kind.

Apple

[Anastasia]

@WIP I've done both chat and call...both exceptional xxx

Just do it hun xxxx

[Snowie]

@WIP I too have used the chat service and the phone. Both helped.

Please don't be scared, they are there to help you 

[WIP]

@Appleblossom @Snowie @Anastasia 

Thank you.  I'm scared of everything right now!

My world is just too hard and I'm tired of trying.