im back..... i think

[Anony18]

What happen @outlander? 

[outlander]

ive lost my friends
what have I done
ive lost my family
where have I gone wrong
her voice got quiter
her nights got longer
until they were finaly gone
I fee like im fading away
trudging through the day
the candle flickers with a dying flame
when will this end, this game

lonley are the nights
lonley are the days
lonley I am in so many ways
I stare at the ceiling
my tears roll down but I cant make a sound

my friends have left me
im not needed, how could I just not see ?
was being close a crime, being me?
lonliness sits beside me
waiting to be set free
she drops her head
she has fought this fight

ive fallen apart, im barley breathing
how can this heart keep on beating
when theres no healing
a loneley girl with those vacant stares
screaming inside but no one cares

this pain, this physical and emotional pain
theres nothing else I seem to gain
except this stupid stupid pain

[Anony18]

Big hugs @outlander please know we all care and though it may seem you lost your blood family, you have not lost your family here on the forums. I saw this and hope it helps you through this 

[Former-Member]

And you haven't lost your friends, those girls aren't your friends. Do you want to tell us what happened and maybe we can talk you through something? @outlander
Hi @Anony18 how are you

[Anony18]

Hi @Former-Member - I am good. Just really tired all sudden. After lunch "siesta" i think haha. How are you?

[Former-Member]

I'm ok thanks @Anony18 just laying on the lounge with bf and mum watching movies. It's raining today. Tough appointment this morning so it's a good way to chill out afterwards. Love a good siesta! Enjoy. You still with us little @outlander

[outlander]

Yeah im still around @Anony18 @Former-Member unfortunately
Still talking it out atm

This stupid stomach of mine. Ready to remove it

[Anony18]

OH @Former-Member what movie? 

Oh dear @outlander - that time of the day your tummy plays up. Poor thing. Anything you can do to help ease it?

[outlander]

Its always like it @Anony18 it just gets worse of a night and morning and more stressful situations than usual
I feel so sick its horrible
Ive got maxalon but it doesnt work

[Former-Member]

@outlander are you talking to the bullies? I'm confused. Try a hot water bottle? I've been snuggled up with one most of the day. @Anony18 we watched something about Mary and now we're going to watch a spooky one.