Trying to stay Sane

[Anastasia]

Hi beautiful,

My mind is being overactive 😞😱

Sleep is definitely not overrated!

How are you dear @Emelia8 ?

[Emelia8]

Yes I thought that may be the case @Anastasia as I have noticed you online here in the early hours. Nope ... sleep is definitely NOT over rated. 😴💖

I am doing okay I think, though disappointed to still be in this degree of pain. Im sure it will settle.

But I just feel as though Im being kept in the dark a little, and not told the full story. Time will tell I suppose.

[NatureLover]

Hi @Anastasia , I see you were awake an hour ago 😞 I am wishing for sleep for you...especially as sleep would allow you to drop your bundle for a time. I don't know what you think about sleeping tablets temporarily? You probably don't want to visit the GP again...

Am concerned for you, dear friend 💔

Sending much 💚 and wishes for you as you grieve...

[Anastasia]

Thank you dear @NatureLover 

I appreciate your message.

I'm doing okish, I had a shocking "dream", I think I do need to at least offload somewhat to a professional. My lady is not ideal for that. I might call Sane. I have things in my head that if I talk about I might feel somewhat better.

This week I have spent every day with Mum running around with/for her. Supporting her. I got the Dr's certificate thank goodness.

Yesterday we picked up Dad's ashes. The last was lovely and a good listener 🙏

My boy has been at his father's for a week, I believe he's doing well. 🤞

He's home Sunday so really hoping that is the case 🙏

Looking at really getting my business off the ground in a bigger way than I initially thought. I need a change. I envision it would allow me time to be more present in my "caring" roles both for my boy and Mum. I reached out yesterday to an ex boss to enquire if there is a part-time casual job opportunity with them which would subsidise me whilst I get the business going. If I am lucky enough to get it then I'll give notice Monday.

Otherwise I'll have to push through, put my big girl pants on and find something quickly! That really isn't an option. I need my plan to come to fruition. 

I read about your arms and hands, I'm so sorry. Now the inspection is behind you, I hope they improve. My hands and nails are shocking at the moment too. 

Better get moving, I'm due at Mums at 9.

Bug hugs and I'll be thinking of you today at work, good luck dear friend 🌷🌟☕🌻🌄🌳🍓🍒

[NatureLover]

Thanks for your update, @Anastasia  especially as you have not much spare emotional energy right now...I appreciate it. 

Oh gosh... you picked up your Dad's ashes...oh gosh, what a huge thing 💔

I'm glad your boy seems to be doing well, what a relief!

Am sending big wishes for your part-time job opportunity and your business...also your hands and nails.

I'm hoping you can get through to SANE quickly, at the time you ring...

Got to dash 💚

[Emelia8]

Things appear to be moving quickly in the area of your work and business @Anastasia . I really hope your plans come to fruition, as I know you have lost your passion for your current full time job.

Its a big thing collecting a loved ones ashes. I remember when I went to collect my husbands ashes last May ... I was very emotional.

That sounds encouraging that your boy is apparently doing well. 

Hope you may get a break from all you are doing for your mum today, and spend a bit of me time. A nice relax in the bath with some favourite essences wafting around, and perhaps a candle for your dad?

Hi @NatureLover have a good day at work today.

Emelia 💞

[pancakes]

Aw that’s beautiful @Anastasia re music choice :ok_hand:

Fires on, here when you need an ear 💙

[Anastasia]

I brought the marshmallows @pancakes 😜🔥

[NatureLover]

Hello, dear friend @Anastasia , I wonder if you were able to get onto the SANE Helpline yesterday? 

I'm feeling so much calmer and (dare I say it) happier. The house looks great and I'm trying to keep it that way. I'm aware of those 5 boxes of mess in my neighbour's shed and will try to bring one of them out this weekend. I agreed to work an extra day today as I missed Monday and the work is too much to possibly catch up on otherwise. I will be exhausted tonight and tomorrow, but I guess I can rest this weekend...maybe that box might have to stay in the shed a bit longer! Truly my anti-vaxx neighbour is a great neighbour to have and we can rely on each other for practical matters and help...I'm grateful to have her. 

When is your boy due back home? Any day now, I think?

And is it Monday that you are due back in the office from then on? I really hope you get news from your interview and can give notice on Monday! How much notice do you need to give them?

I notice you weren't around in the small hours of the night/morning...am hoping you were sleeping...

Lots of 💚 and hugs for you...

[pancakes]

Marshmallows eh? @Anastasia now we’re talking :ok_hand: