Running

[avant-garde]

@Jynx 

Figured it might do that...

[Jynx]

@avant-garde 🥰

How you feeling now hun, has your system settled some or still in tension-city?

[avant-garde]

@Jynx my head is less like a rollercoaster and more like a Ferris wheel

I don't know what it's like to not have some kind of trauma-tension

[Jynx]

Yeh not sure I do either @avant-garde or else I'd be able to sit still without my legs bouncing 😅

Ferris wheel... endless up and down? Or round and round I spose.... 😵

[avant-garde]

@Jynx slower but doesn't tend to stop

There's something my social worker mentioned yesterday... that there are those with lived experience who have the potential to be advocates to change policies in regards to mental health... that they get paid to help others like them... she said when life settles down it might be something to look into...

[Jynx]

I think I've heard of that @avant-garde would deffo be worth looking into!! 

I'm gonna be wrapping up soon so I should probably start making the rounds and saying my goodnights! I'm sorry today was so heavy on you hun, I hope tomorrow brings some stillness and soothing into your world. Nighty night 💜

[avant-garde]

@Jynx 

High attention to detail, knew you would be finishing up in about 20 minutes. 

Also tomorrow isn't likely to be completely settled, Delilah will be at church tomorrow afternoon... I shall get my happy meal

[avant-garde]

@tyme 

You know what breaks my heart? 

Thinking back on my baptism doesn't bring joy and gratitude as much as it reminds me of the abuse that surrounded it

[tyme]

Hrmmm @avant-garde . I wonder if this is the road many Christians walk on?

TW: Christian beliefs

Content/trigger warning

I'm thinking that baptism tells the world you are joined with christ. And I feel that as Christ suffered, so should we? I was baptised many years ago. I remember rejoicing for a short time, but from there, things really went downhill. 

I guess that was the path the lord had for me?

There was a song we learnt in Sunday school as kids:
If all were easy,
If all were bright.
Where would the cross be?
Where would the fight?
But in the hard place
God gives to us.
Chances of proving
What he can do.

[avant-garde]

@tyme 

TW: rape, spirituality

Content/trigger warning

My baptism was quite dark... I was taught a concept that rape was how I was was sanctified... by authority in the church... by the pastors in the church...