not coping

[Snowie]

Sorry to hear hun @outlander 

Am around for awhile if you need some support/distraction but I also know you need to limit your time here.

Lots of hugs and hugs 

[outlander]

thanks @Snowie its hard. i was struggling before and this has just made it much worse but the more anxious or upset or the stronger the urges get the worse i feel headache/stomach wise. my body is really not cooperating well atm.

[Snowie]

It must be hard for you hun @outlander  I know how strong those urges can get and how they can take over. Would a bath/shower help at all? 

[outlander]

i might have one soon @Snowie i have to try and work out pops dinner at least.

[outlander]

I have to go do the dishes yet again @Snowie because pop wont do it. Told me 3 times he would do it and when i remind him he just snap at me and says he never said that

[Snowie]

Can he have something easy tonight @outlander 

Will be sitting with you sweetheart, I know how demanding your pop can be and how much he expects of you. 

[NatureLover]

So sorry your pain's been so bad and your SI and SH thoughts so bad too 😞

I had a thought, would listening to an e-book be good? Or would that be too mentally stimulating? 

@outlander 

[Eve7]

Hi @outlander I am sitting here with you. I’m sorry about the urges plaguing you now. I am sending another big hug 🤗 and hoping the pain, dishes and Pop just disappear for the evening.

How about some quiet music? I can play the piano for you.

Lots of love and understanding.

💜💙💜

[outlander]

thanks @Snowie i ended up just cooking some chicken and vegies. he and i can have that so just put mine aside for now and he liked it thankfully.


@NatureLover
i dont have an e-reader but thank you. i cant really have headphone on for more then a few minutes or music playing much. like to much talking just gets to overwhelming anyway but that you for the suggestion

[outlander]

thanks @Eve7 im struggling to even listen to music atm. my pop is a clock collector (so far im aware theres around 20 clocks ) and has ones that chime and tick loudly even a cuckoo clock! ive gone around and turned some of the chimes off but i dont think itll be long before he notices and turns them back on. its not so great when your in bed and its 2 oclock and all you can hear is all the different 'ticks' going off 🤦‍♀️
i cant get my pain under control. ive had 2 doses of the regular otc stuff ( as prescibed on box ) and the stronger pills the dr prescibed and its not curbing it at all atm.