not coping

[outlander]

i had to @tyme i had a surgery and a house to pay for and now because im falling so far behind in bills ill probably have to keep doing that for a while so i can actually get myself out of debt for once.

[tyme]

Then again, do you WANT to have friends to hang out with? 

That is, when you are working and they want to see you, would you go and meet them? @outlander 

[outlander]

yes @tyme i want friends to hang out

when i go out with the work friend its nice and freshing. i try with another one but she drains me because all she does is complain about everything.
i dont want friendships based on negativity-i dont mind supporting of course but i dont want every encounter to be a ranting session for the entire duration
i work hard to make sure i dont have alot of negativity about my circumstances etc when i interact as it never ends well and its not a good balance for the other person either.
i actually like going out with one or 2 people. anymore is abit overwhelming but i use to be around alot of people with the horses (who obviously werent friends since they dumped me when i was injured) but i use to enjoy their company

[tyme]

True @outlander , makes sense.

I guess friendships are also give and take. They can be draining and vice versa. I guess those boundaries are important.

Would you consider studying a bit more? Or you won't have time?

[outlander]

i had thought about doing a counsellors degree @tyme but im not to sure. i dont really have the mental capacity for it atm.
might look into a skills course or 2 throughout the year.

[tyme]

Fair enough. @outlander  I don't either!

[outlander]

It gets tough trying to work and study sometimes esp when it’s a more intense study @tyme

In the last 4 years I’ve aquired 4 major certificates plus done around 20 skills courses in between. I think a few months off might do me some good

[tyme]

True that @outlander . Rest is good. Gives you time to catch up for yourself. I really hope things work out for you. 

What are your plans for tomorrow?

[outlander]

No plans @tyme still on leave. Have car running now so might go for a walk. Not suppose to drive yet but better than sitting at home again all day. Nice beach 10 min from me so might go there.

What are your plans

[tyme]

I feel like I'm still catching my tail @outlander . So pretty busy doing things tomorrow I guess. But I'll see you in the evening. 

I'm heading off. See you then 🙂