Hey there @Fluttershy1 
Yikes 5 nights without sleep it a lot! When we haven't had enough rest it can be heaps harder to manage our feelings and urges. Hopefully you can take it easy today and hang out here if it helps. If you are feeling too overwhelmed the helplines are always there too. Go gently with yourself.
Hey @Jupiter,
things are hard, I have been reaching out to helplines but they aren't being helpful right at this moment.
Im struggling through today. I just want it to get eaiser, my depression and switching alters are tiring.
I sorry 
I go hide, depression hits again.
take care
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