@Shaz51 you aren't on my list of safe hugging people (or parrots) but I super appreciate the sentiment. I like that you are nearby...just not hugging nearby. 
I am really really REALLY missing CherryBomb now. The feelings are super giant. I feel super alone and super afraid. I am so stuck. I'm so scared.
I miss (F) (abusive psychologist). I was much safer with him, than I am now. Everything he told me was right. He WAS the only one who would put up with me. He WAS the only one who would provide me with such a high level of support. Now I'm stuck in this muddle with (A) and it feels so so SO icky. I don't see any way out. There's simply no way out now. I so very very VERY badly wish I could pick up the phone and call someone right now. I so VERY badly wish I could. I feel super super super alone. @CheerBear
@CheerBear I think I will definitely sleep in your pocket tonight. Thank you for understanding that not all big ships around here are created equal. Some super safe big ships are aware of this and I so very badly wish the super safe navy had enough money to be able to have super safe big ships here 24/7. I hate how everything comes down to money. I'm really really really missing CherryBomb. I super hope the super safe navy find someone as super safe as her. There are SO FEW people in this world that I feel genuinely safe with and connected with - it hurts so very VERY badly when one of them leaves my world.
Thank you for being my not-friend @CheerBear. I will snuggle in your pocket tonight and we will ride out our respective giant waves together.
Thinking of you both Phoenix_Rising and CheerBear
All this talk of being underwater has reminded me of Freddi Fish and the Case of the Missing Kelp Seeds - one of my favourite computer games as a kid. I googled it and rediscovered a particular moment from the game which is screenshotted below. I'd forgotten all about this until now, but wanted to drop off a couple of spare SuperDuperDookaBookaPolyGizmos in case you need them. I promise that this won't make much more sense when the picture gets approved, and I hope that making sense doesn't really matter.
(Edited to correct typo)
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SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.