Riding a wave

[CheerBear]

Thinking of you lots today @Phoenix_Rising. I spent my (ridiculously early) coffee time this morning pinning my feelings away on a secret board. There was lots of Pooh and Piglet. So much to learn from them.

Cruel hurts a lot 🙁

I hope however you're spending your day, there is a moment (or more) of something that is or feels good.

[Phoenix_Rising]

Hi @CheerBear,

It sounds like maybe you were awake around the same time I was this morning? Perhaps tomorrow morning we can have an early morning coffee together-but-not if we are both up at silly-o-clock again. 

It is very very dark in my world at the moment. However, it is TTT eve so that helps. So long as neither she nor my GP get squished by a bus, I should somehow survive the current muddle, albeit with a very broken brain and an utterly decimated soul. 

I hope you have had a peaceful day @CheerBear.

[CheerBear]

Hi on this TTT eve @Phoenix_Rising

I was awake, maybe not quite as early as you but I wasn't far behind this morning. I think an early morning coffee together-but-not if we're both awake at silly o'clock tomorrow, sounds great (though I hope we can both pull some magic sleeping-in trick off). 

I love that one. I saved it, with the lines that go before it, to my board this morning. Big heart feels. 

I know you can survive this, though I know it's very dark and very hard. 

Hope sleep is sleepier tonight.

[Phoenix_Rising]

I feel super super super scared @CheerBear. I am going to snuggle into your pocket now. I hope you have a super sleepy sleep. Thank you for being my not-friend. Not friends never disappear, even if they do. A not friend who is not there is still just as much a not friend. We've got this. Night.

[CheerBear]

I know you're super scared @Phoenix_Rising. We can be scared together. We've done scary lots before and we can do it some more.

Not-friends don't disappear and I trust that even though trust is SO tricky. And even if not-friends were not together-but-not anymore, they would definitely still be just as much not-friends. That wouldn't change.

I hope you sleep snuggly in there. The kettle is on for the morning, though I'm hoping we both sleep through silly o'clock and we miss seeing the early, early morning. I don't know how you have your coffee and I can't believe I don't know that. For some reason, I feel like I would really like to discover that, sooner than not.

Night

[Phoenix_Rising]

Good morning @CheerBear if you are around. I am having my morning coffee - white, no sugar. 

[CheerBear]

Morning @Phoenix_Rising

I guessed that wrong. I would have thought white with two. Thank you for letting me know ☺. White no sugar is how I have mine also.

How was sleep last night?

[Phoenix_Rising]

I was awake a lot during the night, despite taking only in emergencies medication. How was your night? @CheerBear

[CheerBear]

Oh that sucks a lot @Phoenix_Rising. I thought sleep meds usually work for you well-ish? I guess that shows how tricky sleep is when you're feeling like you are 🙁

I really struggled to go to sleep last night and was up in the early 4, but that's not totally unusual. I had a little puffer fish in bed with me when I woke up.

[Phoenix_Rising]

@CheerBear I was up at 4am too - maybe we should have had earlier coffee. 

No little puffer fish around here though - just S and me.