Hi @CheerBear and anyone else interested in my adventures with TTT,
I still super like TTT after our third session. 
Trying to figure out where to start with the muddle is...well...the first muddle! Today I gave her the super long report that Fred wrote for the court case against the church, so by next week she will have a much better handle on the story. I also gave her the ASD report and the neuropsych assessment I had done a few years ago.
We discovered that we are on the same page in thinking that complex-PTSD and BPD are exactly the same thing, just a different name. I told TTT how I find it odd when people say they've been diagnosed with BOTH C-PTSD and BPD and she agreed that it is a little odd. We talked about how C-PTSD is a prefereable name because it kind-of explains stuff better rather than suggesting there is a fundamental problem with the person.
Oh guess what @CheerBear? TTT has gone to conferences by Bessel Van der Kolk. Yay for finding a psychologist who is actually interested in moving beyond skills-based stuff!!! 
TTT mentioned that DBT is just the BEGINNING of dealing with giant muddles like BPD/C-PTSD. I responded by telling her how much it bugs me that so many people seem to think DBT is the end point. We talked about how it is super good for helping people to get stable enough to then tackle the underlying muddles, but in and of itself, it doesn't HEAL trauma. I super like that she understands I can actually do the DBT stuff pretty well...but that this alone isn't going to FIX the muddle.
I played with TTT's glitter jars today @CheerBear. She has a blue one and an orange one. I started playing with them around the same time that TTT left the room to hunt down a weighted blanket for me from another psychologist's room - clearly there was some melting down in today's session! Melting down is icky...but having a psychologist who has glitter jars to play with and soft toys to cuddle and who finds you a weighted blanket definitely makes for less ickiness!
Oh and earlier in the session, before the meltdown, I showed TTT how I can stand on my head. She was suitably impressed. I super like how big her office is. She has lots of space for me to show off my head-standing ability.
I think that's it for this week's TTT report. I really am super excited to have found her. Unmuddling the muddle is going to be sooooooo hard, but I am so relieved that I have finally found the right person to help me do it.
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Hi @CheerBear and @Catcakes,
I so very VERY badly wish I could clone TTT for you both (and for others in Forum Land). I feel a bit bad talking about her awesomeness because I'm not sure if that will make others sad that they don't have a TTT. It really shouldn't be this hard to find a good therapist!!! I get the very strong impression that all the psychologists in the practice are like TTT - i.e. the practice owner is very particular about who she employs (aside from her manager...although TTT keeps telling me she is nice despite her couple of mess ups).
I hope your session goes well tomorrow @Catcakes. I'm super glad you have a psychologist that you connect well with.
@CheerBear I'm sorry to hear that Topic Tuesday brought up big missing-people feelings. 
Missing-people feelings HURT!!! Actually that's what triggered my meltdown during today's session - talking about people who had left my world. It sounds like we need to sit together but not in our big missing-people feelings tonight, CheerBear. I will snuggle in your pocket. I'm right there along with Squishy, Mr Seahorse and Dr Havetodo. Can you see us? We aren't going anywhere!
Goodnight Forum Land. @Former-Member I think I saw you meandering around Forum Land. Super big thank you for watching over the ocean.
Hey @CheerBear,
Just letting you know that I won't be around today because I'm off on an adventure. My adventure involves a train ride - trains are fun. It should really also involve a bus ride but I don't actually know how to catch a bus, having not done it for about 25 years, so I'm just going to walk from the train station. I know, I know, I can feel how much everyone wishes they were as functional as I so obviously am in the real world. Two university degrees, can't catch a bus! 
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Help us push aside the stigma and discrimination surrounding complex mental health and change the way people talk about, and care for, mental illness.
SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.