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Re: Riding a wave

Hi Phoenix rising,

Lola here, one of the moderators

thanks for replying to Frog in the Pond who has finished her shift. I have taken over. I am sorry to hear that you have such a difficult time.

take care and know that we are here for you

lola

 

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@Phoenix_Rising ......

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Waiting for your return......

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@lola @Faith-and-Hope @TheVorticon Thank you for riding the wave with me. I don't intend to be on the forums a lot today but it super super super SUPER helps that you guys are riding along with me. Nothing is going to help this situation now, except time. Strangely enough, I was saying the exact same thing a week ago when the saga started on the Thursday. I need TIME. I need a few months of quiet and calm and safety. That would go a long way to healing my brain. Every single time there is an upheaval like this, it is so very very VERY destructive.

I know seeing A on Monday will help...only 46 hours to survive until then. I will survive this...I just have no hope right now of how I will ever move beyond surviving to actually creating a life worth living.

Super big thank you for being with me in this storm. These forums are the most amazing source of support I have ever found, and I am so very very grateful that I found you all. At any time over the next 46 hours, all I have to do is jump on here and there will be someone right nearby won't there. I don't need suggestions on how to survive, I simply need to hear someone say "I'm here with you."

I will survive this. I've got this.

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Phoenix_Rising
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@Former-Member could you please maybe swing by and simply let me know you are here with me in this storm?

@Former-Member Thanks for stopping by on this gigantic wave. My favourite type of exercise is swimming, which I guess makes sense, given I'm a sea turtle. Smiley Happy I think the thing about swimming is that it forces me to regulate my breathing (cos, you know, otherwise you drown!).

My dog lives across the Rainbow Bridge. He re-located there almost five years ago. For most of his life we lived in a beachside unit and we walked thousands of miles along that beach across his lifetime. I super love being near the ocean (again, makes sense, given I'm a sea turtle!). Sadly, Sydney house prices pushed me inland further, although I do still have a couple of super nice rivers nearby. Sometimes I get an overwhelming urge that I HAVE to get to the ocean. I am only an hour from it outside of peak-hour and I know I could never move further from it.

My cat who re-located across the Rainbow Bridge last November was super good at helping me with mindfulness and slow breathing. He used to sit sphynix-like on my chest and we would have a staring competition as I watched him go up and down with the rise and fall of my chest. My old boy who still lives with me is super cuddly. He TRIES to be supportive...but his idea of helping with my big feelings is to lie across my face such that he nearly suffocates me. Smiley Happy My young boy is ridiculously hyperactive. He is not into the cuddle thing at all, but his hyperactivity makes me smile. Smiley Happy

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Sitting with you @Phoenix_Rising

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@Faith-and-Hope I super love the picture you posted. Right now I'm in the middle of the ocean far from Forum Land, but it is super nice to know there is a teddy bear waiting for me when I finally make it ashore. Smiley Happy

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❤️💕 @Phoenix_Rising .....

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Hope you managed to do a bit of violin and sitting in the sunshine @Phoenix_Rising. I certainly did not retrieve my old violin from the cupboard today because I haven't played it in forever and would sound disasterous. My favourite thing used to be to play with the back of the bow (I can't remember the terminology, it's been almost 20 years!), mainly because it was much quieter and less disturbing to my own ears. Smiley Tongue

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I am about to bunker down in my very leaky shell for another night out on this oh-so-tumultous ocean. I'm not totally alone out here, right? Even though it is very dark and the waves are super big, I'm not as alone as I feel right now, am I. Night. @TheVorticon @Faith-and-Hope @outlander @Former-Member @Former-Member @CheerBear

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