Now you really need to tell me the double meaning @CheerBear - no fair keeping it to yourselves - remember I am ODD NOT the odd one out!
I will have to remember to give you thinking time between parts of a joke then CB 
come on you too - this is not good for my feelings of self-worth and belonging @Phoenix_Rising @CheerBear 
@CheerBear I feel super super super scared. The whole thing of TTT wanting payment to talk to my turtle whisperer has utterly smashed me. I have super lost hope of even getting to first base with her, and there are no other options on the horizon. The waves of suicidal ideation keep coming and coming and coming now. I am back to where I was before my turtle whisperer stepped into my world. The muddle is enormous and just keeps growing. I feel super unsafe, even here in Forum Land. Still no one has explained the removed posts. This is now going to linger on until Monday. I feel muddled by that because usually if something is removed it is sorted out ASAP. I've been telling myself all day that it is ok, but now that I am going into the dreaded weekend time, my anxiety around it has super intensified. I don't understand why this couldn't have been sorted out today. The posts themselves are of no consequence to me whatsoever. It makes no difference to my life if they are there or not. I just feel squirmy that I am going into the weekend with the matter unresolved.
I feel SCARED CheerBear. I feel so so so scared. I think the only place I feel safe in the whole world is in your pocket. Will I be able to stay in your pocket all weekend - except for when I am sitting on your desk?
I'm sorry I couldn't make it to FF tonight. My world is darker now than it has been in quite a while. @CheerBear I'm ready to snuggle into my shell in your pocket while you snuggle in your blanket in your nest in the inner sanctum in the underwater cave alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the way at the bottom of the ocean. Do you think @Zoe7 and @Former-Member are around here somewhere? I'm sure they are. I think they are here even when they aren't.
@Faith-and-Hope and @Former-Member would you maybe be able to watch over the ocean tonight? There is a category 5 storm raging and I am afraid. But I know I will be super safe in CheerBear's pocket. The scared feelings are just feelings. Nothing bad is actually happening tonight, they are just feelings - superly duperly gigantic ones!
Good night. I will try again tomorrow. Hooray for not living on Venus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@CheerBear I super love the fact that we are such good not-friends that you can sense how I am feeling even when I am not here. I feel safe in your pocket. 
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