Riding a wave

[Former-Member]

You are reaching out for support on the forum @Phoenix_Rising which is good, this is a peer to peer support platform so me as a moderator and others as members can try to support you in the way the forum allows us to.

We could work on supporting you to make you feel more calm this afternoon, and running over the details over and over again does not seem to be making you feel calm. Are you willing to try doing something else on the forums ?

[Phoenix_Rising]

No one hears me, no one hears me, no one hears me, no one hears me. Please please please please HEAR ME. @Faith-and-Hope no one hears me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I followed the rules, but no one replies. Why won't they simply TALK about it!!! I was told we would be working through it via email today but it didn't happen. I have been waiting ALL DAY. 

I do not matter,

I'm only one person,

Destroy me completely,

Then throw me away.

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Former-Member This doesn't make sense. I WOULD seek support here in Forum Land but I've been told I'm not allowed to talk about it here or else I'll be banned. I've been told I need to use the "appropriate channels" but neither you nor anyone else is responding to me via the "appropriate channels". So WHAT DO I DO????? What do I do??????????

[Faith-and-Hope]

That is hard @Phoenix_Rising ....I hear you .... and I don’t know why it didn’t end up being worked through today via email .....

I don’t want to try to guess at reasons or why’s or wherefores although I know they can exist .... I have no real idea what they might be in this instance ..... but I do know that you are hurting, and hurting badly.

I am sitting here with you ..... but a Like doesn’t feel right because I am not liking this at all .... but that, and saying so here on th forums, are my only way of telling you that I am hearing you, and sitting here with you in the hurting zone, and waiting with you .....

I am also hoping it can be sorted out very soon ... by sorted out I mean reaching a point where hurt and confusion are addressed and reduced.

🌷🐢💕

[Zoe7]

We here are hearing you @Phoenix_Rising and we are supporting you despite not knowing the details as that is what we do for each other on the forum. Details here are not important but knowing how much you are hurting is - none of us want you to be feeling this way and I know I wish this was not the case for you 

[Phoenix_Rising]

There's no one, no one, no one, no one, no one, no one, no one.

I do not matter,

I'm only one person,

Destroy me completely,

Then throw me away.

[Phoenix_Rising]

I'm trying SO HARD @Faith-and-Hope and @Zoe7. I'm trying SO HARD to use the appropriate channels. Why are my efforts ignored? And then I get in trouble for bringing it here. But there is nowhere else. There is here and there is there, and no one is responding to me there. I am trying so so so SO HARD.

[Faith-and-Hope]

☔️🐢 @Phoenix_Rising ..... I don’t have answers but I am here with you.

[Zoe7]

The waiting is more than frustrating @Phoenix_Rising it does hurt because you feel like you do not matter. As @Faith-and-Hope there could be many reasons (of which we could not know) that this could not be dealt with today for you and that makes you feel like you do not matter - it isn't personal but it doesn't stop you feeling like you are being rejected or brush aside - these are really hard feelings to deal with little turtle 

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 I feel so scared. I am so utterly alone. I TRY. I follow the rules. I worked so hard at waiting ALL DAY today trusting in the promise that there would be some dialogue today. But all I got was the, sorry I was too busy, I'll email tomorrow email. How can I trust that anything will happen tomorrow when I was told it would happen today? And WHAT will happen tomorrow? Anything helpful? Or will it just be another bus? I've been dealing with this for THREE MONTHS.