Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah maybe I should see if they have one @tyme 

That looks really good @ENKELI 

[creative_writer]

@Birdofparadise8, prayers, I’m having dinner right now. Even being on the forums help, I don’t always have to seek help for myself, helping others helps you. Probably will distract myself too and try not to get caught up in thoughts around shame, I need a break. I probably will need to take PRN so I don’t barely sleep and wake up agitated again


Looks so good @ENKELI 💖. Maybe I should try diamond art

[Birdofparadise8]

Okay, that's good you have steps to take. 

I'm just watching some uni lectures so that is distracting me @creative_writer 

[tyme]

The pokebowl was average @Birdofparadise8 . Wasn't what I was expecting. So I only had a bit and left the rest. Oh well. What did you have for dinner?

[Birdofparadise8]

Did your sister like it @tyme 

I had a chicken schnitzel I cooked last week and put it in some bread with lettuce and mayo. 

What are you doing tomorrow? 

I have uni only one online class, study, gym and call with KHL. 

[tyme]

I didn't actually ask if she liked it. I think she did because she finished hers @Birdofparadise8 

Your schnitzel sandwich sounds good. 

I don't cook, but I've got a freezer full of meals. I need to start using some of them soon. They are meals people give me when they've got extras - not the ones from the shops.

I've got a pretty chill day tomorrow. Not doing much.

[Birdofparadise8]

That sounds nice @tyme. 

One question for you tyme. Is everything okay after the other day? 

I appreciate where you were coming from, but I'm unsure if that was the angle I was looking for. I wanted to explore the bullying. 

I just want to move on from the bullying. It's been three years, and it still haunts me. 

Would it be okay to talk about a bit of it now?

I'm discussing it with my psych, and I'm trying to get everything to fit in my memory correctly if that makes sense. 

[tyme]

Yes, of course everything is okay @Birdofparadise8 . 

I'm not sure I'm the best person to talk about the bullying with, but I'm not sure I have much to say. 

I recognise it's affected you and it occurred over a period of many years though. 

[tyme]

I think for me, I never got 'sad' over bullies because friendships were not important in my eyes. If someone did something, I'd just walked off. I never wanted to feel like I owed something to any 'friend'. To me, it was more like I talked to everyone but didn't care whether I had deep seeded, long-lasting friends or not. @Birdofparadise8 

I think that's sort of what protected me too. 

And that's why, even on the forums, if people don't 'talk' to me, it doesn't actually bother me one bit.

Hence I don't know if I'm the best one to talk to about friendships and bullies.

[creative_writer]

Hi @Birdofparadise8, I’m here too. I’m on a “wanting to help people to forget my own problems” roll