Hi @BlueBay
This sounds so positive - I am really glad to read about your making decisions - you must feel better yourself - personally I think groups have a place but not always and if we are really into recovering it can drag us back - I found this along time ago when I started to heal after my son died - I had to stop groups too - it seemed to drag me back. We need to go forward at our own pace - I do understand this
And of course your doctor believes you are in pain - he sounds like a very decent and caring man - and I believe you're in pain too - and pain is subjective - in no way can we really communicate what our pain feels like to someone else - we are told to say where our pain is on the 1 - 10 scale. I think whatever number we say when we are asked that question it is the sound of our voice and the look on our face that communicates the level to a paramedic for example - they are trained
And doctors are too - so yes - I think it's true and you have pain and sometimes it's really bad - I've explained the Government contraints on prescribing pain medication - I think this is unfair and it has nothing to do with the psychosomatic nature of pain - it's a law that has no understanding of the subjective nature of pain - I know it - you are learning it and many others are caught in the tangle
I've been though dealing with stress related disorders and finally I had an operation I needed - it is hard for doctors to sort through things when stress is a big factor - I think your doctor is on the ball - you are free to get another diagnosis if you are worried - I know you were examined by a physician fairly recently and your GP knows this
When I was reading the info in the internet about BPD I learned that diagnosing something with the disorder was difficult - you have been checked out - I can't possibly tell but what I can suggest is that you do the best with the info you have and think about it and the difficulties about pain medication and try and not get worried - just as your emotions are scattered so it's possible this is how your health issues are perceived too so it's tricky. I hear you - it's a problem
It's very humid today - I would like to go to the beach myself but getting a bus would be an adventure in pain I am not prepared to have just yet - I am recovering but it seems I have one good day when I get a few things attended to and then I have a day when I am very tired and need to rest more - I have been reading a lot lately
I think that having a thread where you can vent is better - and it's encouraging actually - it seems you are more settled but then I also know something about stress and depression myself and I remember there were times that were really hard to get through - but this does pass - it comes down to letting time pass -
When I was waiting to go into the theatre for my operation last week I was having my personal private freak-out which is what I do - of course - and a theatre operater asked me what I could do - of course I said "I can breathe" - true - I had the mask on and the nurse pulled it down slightly which was easier - and after I thought - well - I could have got up and gone home - but I needed that operation
At the trickiest and most confined moments of our lives there is always a way out - we can choose not to do that - I really only worked that one out for myself last week
All the best
Dec
