I’m bored.. + some random thoughts

[Blackcloud]

@Jynx yeah, only my right side (my cheek/jaw part) is swollen since I’ve only gotten the wisdom teeth from that side out. Unfortunately I don’t cook, and I’ve never cooked mashed potatoes nor scrambled eggs - I would love to though but I don’t have the mental capacity to actually learn how to cook and meal prep stuff 😂😂

And Yeah, I just started last week since it is TAFE/vocational anyway so 🫠 I hope I can move onto to do an undergraduate degree next semester after I (REALLY HOPEFULLY I PRAY TO GOD) finish this cert 4 course in which I only have 2 units left to pass 😭

[Jynx]

@Blackcloud Whaaaaat you don't wanna fumble around learning a new skill while you're all sore n swollen? 🤣

You're getting so close! You got this! 😎

[Blackcloud]

@Jynx @Gremlin24 I wish my mum can leave me alone 😭

[Gremlin24]

@Blackcloud oh I know that feeling all too well.

Here if you need to chat, sitting with you ❤️ 

[Blackcloud]

@Gremlin24 she asked me on messages like more than half an hour ago if i've joined any group (social group) yet and then when I answered her about it, she then says that I need to meet new people to socialise and blah blah blah. What's even annoying is that she tells me this all the time these days.

Like last Monday, I've literally tried joining an online social group thats catered for women that are on the autism spectrum but I've happened to not get anything out of it when I joined there tho...and I left that group like an hour earlier than the finished time

[Gremlin24]

@Blackcloud sounds like she is putting alot of pressure on you which really isn't fair. Good on you for joining one and giving it a try. It's all a matter of working out what suits you and what you are comfortable with. 

[Jynx]

Ach, that's so rough @Blackcloud - does your mum know that when she pressures you it actually makes the process harder?

[Blackcloud]

@Jynx she doesn’t - in fact she believes the opposite unfortunately.

[Jynx]

Sounds like she doesn't really make room for your unique experiences @Blackcloud and just wants what she thinks is best for you. That's really rough! 

Gotten to a point where you can ignore her? Or not ignore like, still talk to her, but just don't take personally anything she says? 

It's hard, I know. 

[Blackcloud]

@Jynx @To be honest it’s really hard not to take them personally, especially when she’s the one that wants to act like the parent that ‘cares’ a lot about you and wants to control you.

Also, I really want to tell her that caring too much is not good for her, no, seriously.