He is 2 years younger than me @AuntGlow. He has always been the golden child. It was always, Captain isn’t as smart as him, Captain isn’t as outgoing as him, Captain doesn’t like the good music he likes, Captain has to work hard at school he doesn’t. Captains friends at school aren’t nice but he has a great group of friends. That was just at school not what happens now.
He doesn’t call or message and when he does mum has to tell me all the good stuff he is doing. I’m still compared to him but I am clearly more successful (not that it’s a competition in my eyes) I don’t really have time for him. All he does is make sarcastic comments to me and put me down. He is an arrogant piece of shit. I get a text message for my birthday and that’s it. I use to send him money for his birthday and he wouldn’t even send a thanks response. I sent him and expensive Christmas present but it took until I saw him in the February to know that he even got it. He has recently needed money so he has asked me. One time I gave it all to him and couldn’t buy food. So yeah.. he is quite a big trigger.
Im really tired today as I e spent a lot of time in the sun and wind. I feel healthy though. The sun and water just does something to me.
I’ll post photos in a minute but we climbed up rocks today to see the waves crash against them. It was pretty cool. The dogs loved climbing. Then mum and I went to another spot and saw whales! They fully breached out of the water and come crashing down. It was amazing. There was a few of them most of it was there fins slapping against the water but it’s also one thing off mums bucket list.
I start feeling it about a week and a half before it. So I get the long lead up. It’s good that there is no physical pain.
I’ve never seen a Gyno before either so I’m a little uncertain. I had an ultrasound that showed up a polyp. Apparently it’s pretty common and not much to it, however I got in really early as it was decided that it was urgent so it’s a little concerning.
2 more weeks!!! It’s been a bit of a roller coaster. I have the medical stuff, the emotional stuff and the crisis stuff. So it’ll be an interesting appointment. I also have a red mark on the inside of my wrist that started as a dot and has grown about 1 cm circle. I’m thinking it may be a skin cancer but not sure apparently mum said there is one on my back too. But I see my dermatologist on Monday so she will sort it out. So there is a little bit of medical concern right now.
Sorry.. that was a @Jynx ramble.. I’m getting good at them. But I have to say pretty much everything as you won’t see this until the end of your shift which can be hard as I do open up some wounds and get left a little triggered.
