I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I’m hoping by resting tonight instead of pushing myself again, I may start to feel better @Eve7. I don’t need to go out for anything I have everything I need so I can just sleep and do what I need to recover. And yes… no more loss of pay. It wouldn’t matter so much if I didn’t have so many appointments all the time! 

When do you get discharged? 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 I'm glad you have done so hun, thank you for trusting me 💜

I also trust you! I legit trust in the fact that you have been in this place before and survived 100% of those moments. You will know when the right time to talk to your psych is, I reckon! 

Oh wow, she's really clever!! Must keep you on your toes? Haha I used to have rats, and they are SMART. I definitely got out-smarted on a number of occasions 😅

[Captain24]

I’ve been a little vocal about it @Jynx. I said I wouldn’t be. Sorry. 

I tell my psych pretty much everything eventually so I guess just see what happens. 

Why do I see you as being someone who had rats.  😜 I never thought of them being smart though. Don’t they just live in a cage? 

[Eve7]

I’ll be out on Friday @Captain24 after my last ECT. On 22nd I’m having knee surgery so I understand all the appointments and what they do to our funds.

[Jynx]

@Captain24 no sorry needed, unless you're saying it to yourself! I don't mind 😉

They're SO smart!! I think equivalent of like a 2-3 year old. They're super social animals and brilliant problem-solvers. They lived in a cage but you gotta give them HEAPS of enrichment, like little rat runs and cardboard forts and well... I let them roam around a lot, which is why I have many items of clothing with small holes nibbled in em 😅

Plus, this 😍

[Captain24]

Nah it was a sorry to you @Jynx. You don’t need to hear it. 

That sounds interesting. Do they smell? 

[Captain24]

I still feel terrible. This is lasting longer than I thought. I’m glad I didn’t go to work last night as I think sitting in the cold would have made it worse. Plus I got a lot of sleep last night. 

I have managed to do a couple of things today. I’ve cleaned the kitchen and done 2 loads of washing. But now I’m exhausted. I’ve started a wooden mechanical music box. It’s a piano. But I can’t concentrate on it. My head is still pounding. 

At least my SI has decreased a little bit. It’s still really high but not as extreme as it was. I have done a lot of planning over the last couple of days. I don’t think I need it now. 

[Ru-bee]

Ugh @Captain24 it sounds like covid has really got ya! It's really impressive that you've been able to get all that done this morning, but I wonder if you can let yourself rest. That might be one of the most productive things you could do right now so that your body can put all its energy into fighting off this sickness

[Captain24]

I’ve just been chilling @Ru-bee. I’m waiting for my lite n easy to turn up and then I’m going back to bed. 

How is your day going? 

[Ru-bee]

Not too bad @Captain24, I'm a bit tired today because I went to the movies last night and didn't get home until about midnight which is late for me, especially on a weeknight when I'm usually in bed by 9pm 😅

Might make myself a coffee. I hope your delivery comes soon!