Does it ever stop

[Fluttershy1]

@tyme @Jynx - I sorta have a question for you both? Is it ok to ask? If not that’s okay aswell? 

im safe 

[Fluttershy1]

 @tyme @Jynx @Appleblossom @creative_writer @MissGremlin -

So I’ve just recently gotten gotten diagnosed with ADHD and with my other diagnosis of BPD, C-PTSD, anxiety, depression, Panic and intellectual disability, SPD, DID.

 I’m finding it really hard to like self regulation sometimes as I’m just having anger outbursts or I will randomly burst into tears or I don’t know what I’m feeling, it’s just like ahhhh because I know ADHD & BPD overlap and have some of the same symptoms and like I don’t want to be medicated for the ADHD as it will take away my quirks and mellow me out.

i currently like who I am and I’ve tried other medications and they just suppress how I feel or just completely numb out who I am and then I feel like I am a nobody. 

I don’t know like which way to go as I also have abandonment issues and trust issues aswell. 

im safe

[Jynx]

Hey @Fluttershy1 totally understandable to be having some reservations about meds. ADHD meds are a bit different, and they also effect everyone differently. I think the chances of being 'suppressed' are pretty low, but not unheard of - just depends on the medication. This is just anecdotal info though and meds are definitely something best discussed with medical professionals so you ensure they're right for your needs! You could definitely share these concerns with your treating team and maybe talk about trialling the meds to see if they are helpful. 

[MissGremlin]

@Fluttershy1 i can relate so much to this sweet. I have autism and adhd (self diagnosed), depression, anxiety, bpd, bipolar, ocd, cptsd. Alot of the  conditions can have overlapping symptoms which can make it so hard to know exactly what's happening. 

I find myself overwhelmed very quickly and then it's a struggle to calm down, I get anger outbursts aswell. I keep a box of fidgets and different things to do in there that I can access at anytime when I'm at home so that I can hopefully self regulate, though sometimes I don't get a chance to catch it before its past a certain point. When I'm out I have my lanyard with different fidgets on it and my earbuds and I'm always playing with something while I'm walking through the shops. 

I'm not medicated at all as I have severe side effects to medications aswell as being a risk for taking more than I should previously so I don't trust myself with them either. 

[Fluttershy1]

@Jynx - I have and they told me it could because of the other medications I’m on for antidepressants, I just get easily distracted and the anger outbursts. Etc. do you know what SPD is? 

how do you cope with things when it gets like that @Jynx? 

[Fluttershy1]

@MissGremlin - I have fidgets at home, take some with me when I go out, I also have communication cards if I shut down and go non-verbal, I have a weighted penguin, I have my medication in a Webster pack as I’m not allowed to have a lot of mine either as I’m at risk but I also need medication for my heart & migraines. So I go pick up my meds on a Monday then Thursday so I have enough to get me through each week. 

I don’t trust myself either sometimes so I just don’t get given large quantities of medications and it stays at the chemist which is really good. 

but also when I get really overwhelmed I tend to either shut down or want to run away that’s the only issue..:.. 

I also have allergies to medications which I have to be really careful about. 

am safe 

@Jynx - do you have any skills or tips on how to cope? 

[Jynx]

Ya sensory processing disorder right @Fluttershy1 ? 

Breathing is always a good first step for anger. Anger is often something emerging from a deeper emotion, like feeling hurt, overlooked, rejected, stuff like that. So finding that emotion and making space for it can help us to release the anger. 

I like this one for helping me to breathe through it all - 

Distractions are harder, usually I need things like alarms and external reminders to help me keep on track. And when it all gets too much, I reach out to my supports 😉

[MissGremlin]

@Fluttershy1 I'm glad you've got the fidgets both at home and when you go out, communication cards are a great idea and I have several weighted teddies in my room ☺️. 

I have one medication for pain relief that's on prescription and even that was restricted to how much i could get at one point. I only get a script each fortnight now when I see my doctor. We recently explored new medications but they made things worse and left lasting effects so my doctor has ruled out all medications now as it's just not worth the risk. 

It's great that you only get small quantities at a time and it can help when we have trust issues with ourselves. I've been able to rebuild a bit of that trust but lately I've slipped up which I've spoken to my doctor about (I'm safe). 

I completely understand about the shut-down or wanting to run away. 

[Fluttershy1]

Correct @Jynx - with the sensory processing disorder shall I send a pterodactyl medal through? 😝😂

I have breathing techniques but I sometimes forget them if I already am on the edge. 

how do you use the external reminders if you don’t mind me asking. 

I went to the pet shop and saw the cutest kitties the last few days. 

I swear this one is angry

 

[creative_writer]

@Fluttershy1 there is definitely lots of overlap. Taking meds can feel daunting, I think it’s an individual thing. I’m not on meds for my ADHD because of my bipolar disorder. Maybe it’s worth bringing up your concerns with a psychiatrist