Depression- Really Struggling- may be triggering

[Former-Member]

Everything!
Firstly i thought i was ok this morning while i was riding that horse then i got chased by a wasp but the ride was ok
Then it was hard as alot of memories come up about the event that happened and then i had a ride on my horse and she was so naughty first she bit bit me leg anf made me bleed aand then i come off and winded myself then that stupid pap smear set me off again and i had a shower and nothing can get rid of that dirty feeling. 😞

@Pepsimax

[Pepsimax]

Sounds like you're been in the wars today are you up to doing some drawing or maybe some deep breathing these are only suggestions if you want to

[Former-Member]

And im behind in my studies again and my lumps getting worse and i cant get rid of this dirty feeling
And my wasp sting hurts and now the bite mark and my stomach and chest from.being winded

Im not really up for doing some drawing i might colour in with my sisters for a while later.

[Former-Member]

It hurts abit too much to do deep breathing atm maybe abit later hopefully @Pepsimax

[Former-Member]

Hi @utopia how have you been

[utopia]

I'm breathing @Former-Member. Trying to remain stress free and calm today after an emotional week.
Sounds like you are struggling today to keep anxious thoughts at bay.

[Former-Member]

thats good self care @utopia

and yeah im very much struggling today. it been a right shite day today

i would prob try and do a bit of deep breathing if i wasnt recovering from being winded it hurts to much to take a deep breath

do you have any plans for tomorrow?

[utopia]

@Former-Member. If deep breathing is too hard today - maybe instead you could focus on creating a safe place - in your mind. Just like @BlueBay beautiful tropical island or my creek in the hills with the smell of eucalyptus in the air.
I guess it's a bit like your drawing thread, you can imagine anything you want. It doesn't have to be the 'correct' colours or sizes. You can have Australian animals together with foreign animals or giant roses the size of trees. It's more important to focus on what you like and what makes you calm.

[Former-Member]

yeah i dont want to move to much tonight @utopia i might just do some easter colourign in tonight

im sore from a wasp sting while i was riding a fruends horse today and then my own horse threw me today and winded me and she also bit me so ive got nice bite mark from that as well. and my ankle injury is sore from riding today. my lumps getting worse and im majorly triggered by alot of memories today and the pelvic exam coming uo is triggering me as well

[utopia]

You have been in the wars @Former-Member.
Rest up well. Easter colouring in sounds like a good plan for tonight. See if you can get an early sleep. Your body needs a good recovery period after today.
A love bite from your horse! !! Maybe it means she loves you. Rather than she was annoyed today.
Take care. ♥♥