A hard day

[Zoe7]

@creative_writer I am going to bed early tonight. Fur babies have had their biscuits so time for us all to go to sleep.

[creative_writer]

@Zoe7 I hope you are able to get what you need to get done while you take care of yourself. I wish you and your lil fur babies good night 💖

[Zoe7]

I got some sleep last night @creative_writer so feeling a little better today. I am still in disbelief about my friend's boy but that is not likely to change in a hurry. She is trying to stay strong but I there will no doubt be a big crash at some time. Her sister is with her so that is heartening - they are very close and will help each other. I have support from my sister and that is helping me ...and of course my fur babies are close by. Keeping busy is on the cards for me today. Going to go outside soon and do some more painting.

Thank you for being here for me Hon. It has actually meant a lot ❤️❤️❤️

[creative_writer]

@Zoe healing takes time and that’s okay. It’s so important to be gentle and kind to yourself, it was a very big loss. Unanticipated losses are difficult.

No need to thank me. I didn’t even do much. I hope the painting goes well. What are you painting? 💖💖💖

[Zoe7]

You have done more than you know @creative_writer ❤️

Painted the sleepers for my front garden edging. Want to take the edges off today so I can join and lay them but I am pretty tired today so will see how I go.

We have a day/time for the funeral now so I will need to see if I can have the afternoon off work next week on that day. 

[creative_writer]

@Zoe7 I hope the weekend has been going okay for you. I’m impressed by how much home stuff you do yourself.

I hope you are able to get some time off, going to a funeral is tough. Sending you lots of healing vibes 💖

[Zoe7]

I love doing all that home stuff @creative_writer I can do it all day, every day, when I have the energy and mind space. I took some time out yesterday to watch the footy and rest for a bit then back outside to join some sleepers before it got dark. They will be ready to cut now today. I won't get it all finished before I go back to work tomorrow but there is nothing that cannot wait.

The funeral is at the end of the week so I am hoping I can get the time off. They are usually really good with those things - last funeral I attended I only found out about the same morning (the person telling me about it forgot to until the day of) and they worked around it for me. I did go back to work that day, which was really hard but also a good distraction. Kids have a beautiful way of making days like that easier. This one is a bit different though - someone so young and I still can't comprehend it. Each day is still hard and it is still very much in my thoughts. Less tears now but lots of grief still.

[creative_writer]

@Zoe7 I think it’s always best to take breaks in between like you said. I don’t follow footy, I hope you enjoyed watching it.

Kids make a huge difference, their smiles and laughs are so precious. They’re so innocent. Grief is going to take time, it’s okay to go easy on yourself 💖

[Zoe7]

I went to work yesterday @creative_writer but now have the rest of this week off. Burst into tears when I got to work today then spoke to my Ass Principal and Principal and we agreed I should take time off at least until after the funeral. I am not coping well at all. Thankfully, my pdoc fitted me in this morning and agreed the same. Going forward we will wait until after Friday and see how I am over the weekend. She has scheduled an early morning call on Monday morning to check in but I am to contact her over the weekend if I need more time off. 

[creative_writer]

@Zoe7 it’s okay to take time off, grief is very hard. I hope you have been able to do gentle activities for yourself today 💖🫂