Yes @Former-Member I can imagine how heartbroken you feel at the moment. It is so hard when you feel let down - especially when you have been through so much on there. I know this is incredibly hard for you - I get that. We are here to support you though buddy - we care about you and we like having you around.
You will be able to go back to your friends there (which will actually make me a little sad because then we won't see you as much here 
) - and maybe as @outlander has said - you can work talk to them about how this has made you feel and work on a plan that can help you stay there and not get banned again.
...and we will be here for now whenever you need 
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Help us push aside the stigma and discrimination surrounding complex mental health and change the way people talk about, and care for, mental illness.
SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.