catching up

[Jacques]

Hi my angel,

I am really struggling today, i could not sleep last night, mum asked me to make a choice about my aunt which puts me under enormous pressure. everything is crumbling around me 😞

I will stay safe Karen, promise me you will do the same, i am going to need your friendship and support for a while to come i have some really difficult times ahead. 

hugs my princess, i am so numb.

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Hi Jacques you know im here for you. I'll do whatever you want. Sounds like your in a very difficult position. What ever you do its going to hurt someone. No win win there.

would there be a time limit on how long your aunt can stay or is it just open ended?

I understand how much pressure this puts you under. Also financially can you afford it.

could you find your aunt somewhere to live? Or a shelter until she gets back on her feet.

Could you set up the shed for you to live in?
Anyway just a few ideas.
Remember to breathe
stay safe
karen

[Jacques]

Hi my angel,

Yes, it is really hurting mum and putting her under enormous stress too, which is going to affect her health, i am trying to make it look like i am ok with it, to keep her stress levels down, but it is not working.

I think mum is going to try and get her setup in a flat or something ASAP, but their are no jobs here and i can't see her leavign anytime soon.  mum will not abandon her sister, so whatever happens she will always have a place to stay.

No financially we are not even back on our feet yet, and with the looming assessment i have comming up next year, i we will have out pays halved.

I was thinking the shed too, but it is full of spiders and leaks water badly too, what a mess i am in. they are great suggestions, maybe i can work on the shed to make it livable for me.

Thank you my angel, you are wonderful, the ideas are great, we only had 1 week to decide, so everything is happening so fast, i feel so out of control.

hugs my angel, thankyou for being here, without you i don't know what i would do.

take care my angel, remember to breath too when you go to your meeting. please let me know how it goes.

I have to go out now for 30 min to pay some bills. thank you for being here for me, it means a lot, i am sorry i can't be here for you with all your troubles. just stay strong Karen, things will get better in the near future, you will see.

Jacques

[Jacques]

Karen, i am back,

I know your appointment is in 30 min, make sure you take deep breaths, and walk around for as long as possible to distract, i will be here for you my friend, just stay strong.

hugs my sweet princess, i know you are hurting, the pain can't last forever.

Jacques

[Jacques]

I hope all went well Karen,

I am thinking of you and i hope you did not have to go back into the MHU, but if you did i am here for you, i will write to you every day, wether you answer or not, i care about you Karen, you are not alone.

hugs my angel, be strong, always see the positive in every situation, if you are in the MHU se e this as a way to get the girls back.

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Hi Jacques
I have to go back to the mhu tomorrow:(

[hiddenite]

I hope you are OK im worried about the both of us.
have you thought about what you will tell your mum?
I think making the shed into your private room would be good. Did you get rid of the old air conditioning unit if not you could put that in the shed. Just thinking allowed.

Thanks for being a awesome friend
Karen

[NikNik]

Hi @hiddenite

I can imagine this feels like a no win situation for you. But what makes me hopeful is that you have previously said that you have been safe in the  mhu - and that's really important.

Are you going to the public mhu?

[Jacques]

Karen, make sure you have contact with me when you are in the MHU, i will chat to you every day like i have in the past, you will not be alone, we can work through this together 🙂 we have in the past and we can now, see this as a way of getting the girls back. if you work really hard and help get yourself better than you have a really good chance of getting your life back on track.

Karen, please chat to me tonight, i am so low, i have slept most of the day again, i have only been awake for about 3 hours today in total.

No Karen, i can't tell my mum anything, i don't want to upset her, i never want to come between her and her family, i am not important, i just want mum to be happy, i don't exist anyway, i am a ghost.

I would love to turn the shed into a room, i was even thinking about putting a granny flat in the back yard, but they are so expensive, yes we had to throw out the old AC because it had broken completely, the shed would work best, but like everything it needs a lot doing to it, and we just can't stretch the money that far.

It is such a shame her children have abandoned her, one child lives within 10 min of her and has never been to visit her. 

it is something i am going to have to live with, it is mums house and mums town not mine, i am just a border, nothing more.

hugs my angel, thank you for thinking of me, please be safe, i know you are stronger than you know, together Karen, we will work to keep each other safe.

miss you my sweet princess.

Jacques

[NikNik]

Hi @Jacques

It seems like you haven't been having the best week. I'm sorry to read that.

I would like to challenge your 'I'm just a boarder' comment. You are her son and from everything you have told us, she loves you very much.

I can see how similar you are in your kindness, you must get it from her 🙂

She's obviously such a kind person by reaching out to your Aunt and I have seen you do that many times in here to others 🙂

I think it's thoughtful that you are not saying anything to your mother because you don't want to put pressure on her, but I would imagine she'd be horrified to know that you are holding this in.

I respect your choice not to say anything to her, but it might be good to talk to her about your low. You have mentioned before that you talk to about these things, maybe now is a good chance to let her be your mum and care for you.

Nik