Tabaluga's

[StuF]

Hi @Emelia8 

Thanks and all the best of the season to you

[StuF]

Good to have help re phone @greenpea !

At least the guy at JB was Very helpful yesterday, did all the changing of sims etc. Even put the sim card in for me

[StuF]

@Jynx 

I Really want to see the new Nosferatu film!

All the best of the season to you too

[StuF]

Good to see you too @Meowmy 

I think you said you're working through the Christmas period, but does your work shut down at all?

[Meowmy]

@StuF @TAB hey StuF, Tabby, will be on leave from this Saturday for ten days ha ha. Hope you're all okay

[TAB]

..maybe go on short holiday on Batgirl cycle  @Meowmy  ..

[ENKELI]

Hey fab Sane fam,

I hope you are all doing well and for those of us in the warmer climes I hope you're keeping cool and hydrated.

I just wanted to stop by and say hello and wish everyone a blessed Christmas. For those of us who celebrate the Messiah may you draw nearer to Him this ferstive season.

Now I have a question I have been pondering. How long does it take to accept that someone you loved is never coming back? Not a romantic partner but a friend, who you shared 10 years of your life with, had their kids Christened as your Godchildren, paid for their education to a private school and sacrificed your own needs to pay for theirs?

A few of you will have heard this story before so I am sorry to go over it again but I am struggling still after nearly 18 months of no contact after this person cut me out of their life, their kids' lives and even their family. I can't go to the church I used to attend because of her, I've lost friends who believed her lies about me and even as I write this I can't help but cry.

If I had a normal brain would I have healed by now? Does my depressed bipolar brain laced with anxiety cause me to go over it whenever I am triggered by a memory, a location or even a song?

I hate being miserable, I hate being lonely after inadvertently giving up my friends for her but most of all I hate how she gets to live life without the emotional pain she caused me.

I hate crying all the time, heck, I hate the word hate.

Thanks for listening/reading and sorry if I put a damper on your mood x

E

[tyme]

Hey @ENKELI ,

You're not dampening our mood (my mood). Look, there are just somethings in life we don't understand. 

I can relate to what you have shared because I leant out nearly $15 000 to someone from the church I was going to. I also paid for their kids' private school fees. I've never seen the money. Yet in my heart, I don't hold anything against them because the Lord says, "Vengeance is mine, I will repay". Whatever happens, happens. I leave it in the hand of the Lord. This is not my battle to fight. There is enough money-related crime going on in this world. 

Will the kids ever 'forget' you? Probably not.

@ENKELI , do what you feel is right. I just want you to know you are not alone. Sometimes, if we focus on the loss, it's very hard to move forward.

[TAB]

hmm was close w sister til she turned on me 13 years ago. very little contact since then. funerals  , about it. no contact over a year this last time. not sure how she can be bothered must be so twisted up inside.

also friend since 1976 dropped me like 12 mths ago after he came here fm sydney, (1500ks) flaked out, drove off into night hopelessly drunk, ran off road , cops took him to hosp  had to fly home, car got impounded ,fined plus fees '000s plus added bonus of bieng fm NSW so had to get alco lock on car once suspension was up. for 3 or 5 years just insane. anyway just b4 he ad to come back for court he dropped contact, not heard ffrom him since. assume he blames me for his actions.  @ENKELI 

[Meowmy]

@ENKELI hey sweetheart, so sorry that you are going through this. In my personal experience, grief does take a long time. My father interfered with my young life and made me to break up with my fiancee.  It took me thirty years to come to terms with it. But God was there. In my dark times, there always were good friends. Hold on. Good times will come. Take care

💗💗