Saturday Soiree - all welcome!!

[Historylover]

Sore feet here too, @chibam. And we really need our feet! I'm pleased to hear all is well with you. I'm doing alright. 😊

[Former-Member]

I understand fully @Appleblossom I was in the same predicament on previous medications which left me bedridden. Its more common than you think. Mine was due to a depot injection medication. I spoke to another woman at a government rehab back in the day on the same depot also suffering extreme exhaustion and requiring lots of bedrest. Had to have a major health overhaul to get to where I am now.  I'm type II diabetes as a result of a medication.  Have been told by my diabetes educator it is reversible. Note: @Judi9877 on here was able to reverse hers through diet alone.  I'm just back in from a brisk walk and checked my blood sugar. Got to get it lower.  But am trimming down quite a lot.  Have to wear a belt now and I've lost up to three notches on it allready! I'm glad you were able to reverse your diabetes - it takes a lot of effort.

[Appleblossom]

@Former-Member It is great you are more active and feeling the benefits.  I do hope they work on your sugars.  So far I have avoided diabetes and not been on long high doses of medication.  Just a few years where meds were high. I am concerned about it for my son though.

Think it was

@Historylover who beat diabetes. Congrats btw.  Hearing you Both about the range of medical opinions ... and notions of best practice and what is or is not "the science".

[Historylover]

Yes, it was me @Appleblossom and I'm getting a bit lazy these days, so I'm fearful of it returning. Not so much lazy, but my feet have become quite injured by all the walking I used to do in inappropriate shoes. Live and learn. I've just been around the block enjoying a little of the sunshine after a stormy-looking morning. Nice here now. Hope all is well at yours. 

[Appleblossom]

@Historylover 

Do what we have ta ...

I got 2 bung toes from wearing too small shoes and now sloppy sandals ... are annoying ... geez so fussy in me ole age ...lol

[Historylover]

Me too, @Appleblossom, and a hammer toe. Always aching. Embarrassing trying to buy good shoes.😳

I have my ex-psy to thank. That was in the days when I did exactly as he told me. I told him my shoes were too tight, but he told me to keep wearing them, so I did. I always did as he said. I thought he hadn't understood, because when I told him my toenails had lifted and my toes had deformed, he was actually able to pretend he had made a mistake. It was deliberate. He told me not to go to the dentist when I had a dental abscess too. They can track to the brain, luckily it didn't. Any time he could harm me, he did. I just thought he was making occasional mistakes and excused him.

You may think I should have thought for myself. I couldn't. He had total control of me. I hate to think what he would have done if I had dared to think for myself. He had total control of me then, and he hasn't finished with me yet. I'm so scared, Apple, but I just keep plodding on trying to make the most of my life in this isolation prison he built for me. 

I wish somebody could help me. I have even thought of seeing a psychic, an exorcist, a tarot reader... and have never been so inclined before. I'm getting quite desperate and I just have to weather it as best I can.

How on earth can one individual have such total control over another? It beggars belief, but not to psychiatrists. They just smirk, knowing they are the only ones who understand. Then they can pass it off as a personality disorder. Ha!

Apple, I'm in an almost constant state of distress and can't talk to anyone about it because only psychiatrists understand. This is their 'playing field'—in every sense.

I don't know if I should post this. Perhaps I'll think about it, perhaps I'll delete it. 

I don't know what to do, Apple, and I'm sorry to offload this on you. I hope it doesn't cause you concern. I just needed to vent and say this is hell! And it isn't a personality disorder of any kind for me, Apple—it's his personality disorder, all the way. It really makes me question if other's seeming delusions are similar. How I'd love the opportunity to investigate and learn exactly what is going on. It must have its source at the interpersonal level in many instances. 

[Former-Member]

Yes lots of people curing their diabetes on here obviously! I hope I'm one of them @Appleblossom ❤️  I have been watching a diabetes summit today and my blood sugar went down to 5.9 just watching the presentation! lol  I have learned some great ideas on how to grapple with it more so am looking forward to making new improvements.  Apart from having medicine induce my diabetes the other factor is strategic lifestyle changes. I hope I can reverse this condition! 🙂 

[Historylover]

I hope so too, @Former-Member. From my experience, you're best to avoid stress as much as possible, eat well and exercise regularly. There doesn't seem to be anything else but to allow time to heal. 

[Appleblossom]

All kudos to you @Former-Member and hope the strategies work.  The presence of stress is not always easy to avoid, but as we get older we can get better at spotting the signs of it.

 @Historylover My wonky toes are a weird part of my mental health in that I was raised to masochism by my mother and would suffer all sorts of things, which other people just tell me, hell no, do not endure that.  I am slowly ironing out all those creases in my personality.

I am interested in what makes a person have their personality. I see it as the nature /nurture interaction, with some brain chemistry and personal choices thrown in. Its not very conclusive and there are lots of theories.  I look at some of the pop culture ideas sometimes, but not often.  Mostly just enough to try and understand the way other people think and have interacted with me.  Eg being able to have a superficial convo about astrology if it is the right thing at the time.

No I do not mind you speaking frankly.  I see it as one part of your journey.  I have needed to say or express some things frequently and gradually I get better insights.

I said recently that I found the best way to get therapy was to do the training myself and then apply it to me.  Somehow I have not found it easy to get a good therapist even though I have put some on pedestals.  My current counsellor is at least offering ideas and paradigms, which I appreciate.  I also have been upfront and critical about things with her, and she accepts that, so I guess we have a working relationship.

I am not kidding.  I do my own 'assessment' of them now.  I know I also need help, but none of them are perfect, and with my history there have been many deaths, so I am a bit pernickety. In order to get good help I need not to have to follow or trust blindly.  Mostly my desperate circumstances, kind of short circuited a natural development of trust and so I was too trusting.  I know how it can happen History Lover.

At the moment I am reading Irving Yalom's 'Momma and the Meaning of life: Tales of psychotherapy'.  Pdfs are available. I read a lot of psychoanalysis in my mid 20s and I am not overimpressed by this dude, but will finish it, to get myself more uptodate, tho things keep changing all the time. Bottom line, no human is truly objective. I am pretty sure that will not change, and so to understand the human that is supposed to be trying to help me

Power imbalances are a HUGE issue in mental health.

Am a bit late for a Saturday Soirree ... lol 

Hope your upcoming weeks are decent.

[Historylover]

Thanks, @Appleblossom, that was really cathartic. On a brighter note, I just got my assignment draft back from Studiosity. They always are so encouraging and it is truly heartwarming and inspiring. So, here's cheers to education! All the best for the weeks ahead to you too!😊 (I'm having a devil of a task with the ';' so I see I'll have to work harder there. 😟