Life and trauma

[MJG017]

@Former-Member 

That is understandable, but the shitty news is there's not much choice.  And that sucks!  I'd very much like to not be fighting cancer which will very likely get me in a handful of years.  It sucks and it's hard to deal with every day.  A lot of days I ask myself about what the point of fighting anymore is.  Why deal with all these side effects from treatments?  It all terrifies me every day.

But we find a way.  Things get easier. 

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 I'm sorry what you are going through and I don't know how you find the strength to keep fighting knowing what you are faced with. 

I shouldn't complain about my pathetic problems. I just didn't expect this, life just keeps throwing things at me and i can't deal with it. Anyway I'm home [edited by moderator]

[MJG017]

@Former-Member 

I don't know either, but we just find a way.  No one's problems are pathetic.  You don't know how I fight mine, and I sure as hell don't know how you keep fighting yours!  These fights aren't easy for anyone and we certainly never expect any of it!  It so hard to do alone, which is why we need support around us.  If any of this was easy, places like this wouldn't need to exist because none of us would need any support.  Keep fighting, you're doing much better than you give yourself credit for.

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 thankyou. Hope you have had a good day despite the heat. 

[MJG017]

@Former-Member 

I went in the pool a few times to cool down.  That was pretty much my day, other than sitting at the PC.  How did you cope with the heat?

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 oh now you are just making me jealous that you got a pool 😂.

Don't even get me started on today's heat, it's horrible. Inside my house was ok but having to go in my car with no aircon to my doctors appointment, well that part wasn't fun. 

[MJG017]

@Former-Member 

Thankfully I didn't have to go out anywhere today.  Even Luna found it too hot I think.  She spent more time today than I've seen her just laying down and not playing like a mad thing! 😂  It's not like the house doesn't have aircon, but she will keep running outside.

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 I'm glad you didn't have to go out anywhere, it was way too hot. I wanted to cancel my appointment cos of the heat, but I needed it. Silly Luna running outside, laying under the aircon is a much wiser option 😂.

[avant-garde]

@Former-Member @MJG017 

I got to see my cat today...

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 I'm going crazy at the moment, I've been in a state of panic since 3.20pm today. An ambulance was called on me but they had no details other than a nickname, so no address, date of birth, full name etc. It was very odd but it's once again triggered all the trauma from a past event. I'm trying so hard not to think about it but it seems the more I try the more it haunts me.