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[PeppyPatti]

Dearest @Healandlove 

I imagine your family eating dinner together and being happy together. I don't know if this is what really happens but I guess what I'm trying to write is that I do feel strength and positivity behind your words. 

What a nice gift. 

I hope your Christmas was relaxing yesterday. Yesterday I really felt it was time for my youngest son to know that he's making choices about his life that I feel are very good.

I said to him that ide been in therapy for many years one was that my mother forcedly took  both my sons at 15 and iv been grieving since then. 

He looks at me and he says, 

'yeah, I know. Whatever, what are we eating ? 

Yep. Over 20 years of my LIFE ..... 😂 

[Healandlove]

@PeppyPatti , thank you lovely. 

I think we have love in this little family but my husband's mental health challenges make it harder sometimes to feel that love.

Today my daughter turns 10. She shares her birthday with her Dad who turns 46. 

It's bitter sweet but we are still together.

I hope things get better but I do feel isolated too sometimes.  

I try to stay positive as much as I can.

Just because your son didn't want to continue the conversation or ask you more questions it doesn't mean he didn't hear what you said. I think telling him how you feel is good and for him to know he has his mum's support is reassuring.  I'm sorry your mum did that to you. And I am so glad you are getting therapy. It will help.

God Bless lovely.  Sending you hugs 🫂 🤗 ❤️ 

[PeppyPatti]

Dear @Healandlove 

You just sent me a message very similar to 

@Glisten 

@ENKELI 

That keeps me going for the day. Thankyou. I have things to respond to you sweetheart.  I don't have clinical depression or anything - - after having therapy - 

I need to hold onto how much I have changed. 

It's tough to wake in the morning with life around and I'll tell you why. I was married to a man with schizophrenia for 10 years - it was wonderful. The love I got was exactly what I needed but 

The craziness was suffocating me. ( No sex really but the relationship was very loving ) 

When I left him - this is weird - my priority was to stay his next of kin - his confidant because there was no I've else. Bloody mental health - so shocking how us normal people run away from it. 

Am I normal? Absolutely not. 

His parents want nothing to do with me -- but he would only keep me as his next of kin. It's hard because my new husband iv been with for 5 years --- it's been tough for him to understand the Nitty gritty of mental health. 

You know this well. 

i commend you. I commend you. 

I beg you to wake up every morning and think of you.