A Poem? Maybe?

[kato]

No Poem, No story, No ranting, Nothing to do with this thread really, but i like my own blog hahahaha

I am so superficial to have my own blog LOL apologies to all who put up with me (jokes)

Ok,

So today i embarked on seeing my new psychiatrist, something i have been getting all antsy about for the last couple of days leading up to, nervous, anxiety, stress, worry...... why??? no idea.

So i arrived at the let's call it hospital, with consulting rooms, apparently one of the best in Victoria, filled in my paperwork, then had like 20mins to stress and worry because i arrived so damn early, get called in by my psychiatrist, and i am a ball of nervous energy, start talking i am sweating while talking, we covered heaps in the hour and twenty minutes.... i think we went a bit longer then planned initially, at the end wrap up conversation, we discus when i can come back, he wants to see me as soon as possible...... not entirely sure why, but mention of bi-polar and psychosis..... not a hundred percent sure exactly what was discussed, my head was spinning, so much to take in........ BUT i am really happy with him, he was extremly good, and so much better then as i call him - the last idiot hahaha

I think because of the way i described things to him, he has more questions for me, to work out what is what, i am no nervous about our next appointment, as he was really concerned about seeing me quickly, but like i said very happy with him, even tho in the long run he won't be able to be my psychiatrist, he only practises one or two days a week, and he also is very high up in a few different programs, but he did say that he would get someone, very very good to help look after me, so i was impressed that he was up front regarding it, i did research him, last night and i had a feeling it would happen,

we discussed everything, even drawing timelines, and i drew him my emotion reaction compared to a baseline of "normal" i actually took the whiteboard marker out of his hand, because he was drawing it wrong LOL...... i am now in a good mood, about to have dinner then, i have homework from him of drawing a timeline of my life and moods as best as i can for him, it will be a struggle, because of my memory, but i will do it over a few days.......

we are going to play with my meds, which he said in such a way that makes me think he is thinking of another disorder as well, so i am a little nervous about that, but not really, just thought i would let everyone know, whether you care or not LOL

thank you

[PeppiPatty]

Dear Kato,

this feels like good news. you know how to get your feeling of the appiontment across.....
I think, it's because you seem up the um."......texture of the appointment with describing the hospital and how you were feeling.
good experience.....please keep us updated,
JA47yr....

[kristin]

Dear @kato 

Absolutely fantastic news! So glad that you found a good one after the stress you went through of finding anyone, then doing some "psych shopping around" - with the first one being a real sod (to put it very nicely!). I am so pleased and relieved for you.

It has been a full-on few months since you first lobbed on the forum looking for help. Look how far you have come. You've not only survived those months with some very dismisssive unhelpful-help from the "old" psych, but had some huge things going on aside from managing rollercoaster mental health. And in the midst of this you haven't just held on, you've grown heaps too. 

Hope for a healing journey, even on a rollercoaster, endures!

Kindest regards,

Kristin

PS I'm all with Anne, please keep us all posted

[Baboo]

Kato- good on you for posting your appointment experience.

If you wanted to- can you record your sessions so you can play it back to help you remember discussions?

Baboo

[kato]

Hey @Baboo
I have never considered asking to record a session if I can it would be very helpful as I am sure I have missed bits I will try to remember and ask at my next one it is a good idea
thanks @kristin I like having somewhere where I can look back and see my different moods etc and see where I have come.... on here it's a little bit more brighter then what I write in my personal journal bit I like having a thought out process and a jumbled journal to look at lol
@PeppiPatty it was a good session and if I can be descriptive about my expierence maybe it will help someone else have an insight into what it might be like and give hope so they might feel more confident organising and going to a session it is nerve racking but positive and there is no harm in not being happy with one if you don't click find someone who you do click with it has helped me
thank you to everyone on the forums

[PeppiPatty]

Hi Kato,
I did not know..... that you think like you do, that you already have an idea that your experiences may help others.
Your interesting because always thought.......
Having a diagnosis can ...unfortunately...... turn your world more and more little, making it only about yourself. everything else is just too overwhelming.

[kato]

Hi ja47,
I have always found others stories etc what they have been through interesting, helped given me an idea of what to expect..... I know I come across as very much all about me, and what I am going through but I do try and explain for others as well.... I dunno earlier it definately was all about me..... but I realised if I can try to explain thought and feeling of expierence it might just give someone the view to try and be relieved that there thoughts or feelings are normal
I still am very much me and my diagnosis tho but I am trying to keep that more for my own journal and share the helpful stuff maybe.....

[peace]

@kato I was glad to read your good news. Ironically my appointment with my psych on Monday didn't go well at all. He did apologize for leaving me in such a bad place for these past 5 plus years. He talked too much and in the end I felt frazzled. By the next day my head was/is full of stuff. I am having a hard time processing it all. I kinda have lost my trust/faith in him. I can see things differently now. I've still been able to work (part-time) but its been a struggle. I also felt left without him realizing that I still need support. Sorry to cut into your "blog" lol ♡

[kato]

@peace
I'm sorry your appointment was such a let down for you (big virtual hugs) never apologize for posting in this post it is for everyone
perhaps maybe seeing if you can find someone else that might be able to help more or even I know it probably won't be easy to see your psych again amd explain everything that has happened with the last appointment maybe
I do hope you feel better.
Can I ask what has frazzled you?
and I do understand if you don't wish to discuss it more

[PeppiPatty]

@peace,

It's good for you to express your appointment because Kato is writing his experiences for your dialogue..........that's what I get at least.....