Writing As A Form Of Therapy

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @BlueBay 🙂

I was thinking about you a lot today, and remembering when you described walking on that beach with your dog, the wind messing up your hair.  It sounded so great.  Please share with us when you have been down there, and what it's like ?

We don't live anywhere near the beach.  I go for walks down at the river looking for dolphins, but that's a different experience from the waves and the salty air ...

[BlueBay]

Yes it's the only way we can get some money. If we down size the land and buy a smaller home it will help a lot. But it's stressful to sell. I don't know if I'm ready mentally.
I want to stay in same area. The house we are in was my parents but we modernised it. I want my own house not a house my parents had. I don't want any of their memories. I want to start afresh with my own family. I want to chose my own home with hubby and not my parents.

[BlueBay]

Hi @faithandhope
The bay is amazing. On a hot sunny day when the water looks like a mirror I sit there and think wow I live in the best place. I'm so lucky to live so close to the beach. When it's winter and cold the water is rough and the wind is blowing. So much water to see. I really love where I live. Trouble is we live in a tourist area so summer is chaos with so many people but it's only for a few weeks. Then in February when school starts we have the beach to ourselves. That's when I love.

[BlueBay]

I'm off to bed. I'm exhausted. Can't keep my eyes open. Hope you all have a good night sleep. I hope I can. Thanks everyone for chatting with me. I am so blessed to have you beautiful people on here. Xxxooo

[Faith-and-Hope]

That's a beautiful mind-picture you just sent me @BlueBay.  I'm going to hug that to me tonight, and probably tomorrow too.  I feel a strong connection with water.  It has so much energy, even when it's lying quite still.  I love the ocean in all its states - calm and serene, or rough and tempestuous.  

You can tell me about it any time.  I will never get tired of hearing it 😊

[Appleblossom]

Sorry I had to drop out suddenly. @BlueBay

Moving is stressful, but keep focussed on the positive.  I moved from 30 to 15 squares .. much easier to clean and look after. No regrets. I also was very frightened as I had had sole responsibility, but it turnedout fine.  Just one step at a time.  Let your mind flow with plans and dreams and maybe it can become a bonding experience with your spouse.

[Silenus]

Sending huggy hopes that your sleep was calming @BlueBay

There's definitely no need to be apologising about writing on here. This is my space, your space, everyone's space, and you're 100 percent on topic...

Sometimes, it's just about getting through each day. There's too much to process, so we just make it through to pillow time...

There will be other days for breakthroughs and major wins. Today, I made it to my pillow. That is enough of a win. In fact, it's the best win of all...

I made it through the day alive,
Tomorrow's journey is to strive and thrive,
Or rest my head on my pillow, still alive...

Hugs... 🙂

[BlueBay]

Hi @Silenus @Appleblossom @faithandhope
I've had a terrible nightmare about myself. I have a throbbing headache in my dream was in hospital in pain and then told I have angina. But the weird thing is I have a throbbing headache this morning!!
@Appleblossom I know that reducing our home size will be beneficial to us. I keep picturing what I would like and picture our life in this new home our own new home.
It's going to be hard and stressful but my adult kids will have to help out or if not happy they can move out.
@Silenus it's hard at times. But yes I made the pillow and today is another day. Hoping to go for s walk if it doesn't rain.
@faithandhope I will tell u more about my beach!! I'm glad u like it. If I can I will put a picture on here but I don't know how. Can u pls let me know how.
Thank you all for your comforting hugs and words and hugs. Hugs and love to you all. Xxxooo

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @BlueBay

@Good to hear from you.  I would loooovve a picture of your beach !!  Not an expert on this, but I am sure someone here will help the both of us if more info is required ... someone explained to me that the little box icon in the strip at the top of the comment box (you know - B I U -S- etc coming across the top here - two across from the 🙂) It's like it's got a scene of mountains/buildings and a sun in it.  Click on that, and follow the prompts.

The first one asks if you want to access images stored on your computer, so can you upload photos of your beach to the computer ?

Would love to see some on 365 as well ❤️

This is just a personal theory but, sometimes I think our brains have way too much to process while we are awake, and there is some sort of emotional detox system happening when we sleep.  Probably some of the memories, or visual dreams our brain switches into to process fears, concerns, worries, anger etc at a faster pace or gentler form, are emotionally charged enough to wake us up.  

Have you ever woken up from a dream, or just from sleep, and suddenly remembered where you had put something down that you couldn't find afterwards, and had been looking for ?  Like car keys, or a pen you were using, etc ?  I do.  I think my brain just back-tracked while I was asleep and "found" whatever it was in my unconscious memory bank.  It's probably doing all sorts of other problem-solving too, 24/7, at a low under-current level.

Does that make sense ?  If it does, maybe along with "postponing the worries" we can also have a mental basket that says "okay, that memory \ incident / thought is a bit too hot to handle right now - I might let my brain work on it with a good slug of sleep anaesthesia happening too".  It's probably worth a try, even if we get woken up a bit in the process, it's gotta be better than beating ourselves up over whatever it is all across the day.  

Tonme, it's all part of that being gentle with ourselves that we all have to develop as we go along.

Sorry, I do get a bit rambly, don't I ?  🌷

[BlueBay]

Hi @Faith-and-Hope

I am reading what you wrote and I think I understand.

I think because my mind is thinking of so many things during the day that at night it is subconsciously trying to work it out ??  Yeah my brain is probably trying to sort things out.

I tried to do what you said about inserting photo but I am scared that it will stuff up and won't work.  I will try again later. xx