Never being in a relationship

[TheRenegade345]

@RiverSeal ive tried everything tonight, there is nothing I can do.

[TheRenegade345]

I did something today that made me feel really bad, even worse than before. I decided to go to a brothel and it was the biggest mistake of my life. I ended up running out due to feeling absolutely terrified and also over the cost as well. 

I thought I couldn’t feel worse. I do now

[RiverSeal]

Hey @TheRenegade345, sorry to hear that you are not feeling the best at the moment. Sometimes we do things in life that we regret and it's an opportunity for reflection on how we got there. Please stay connected on the Forums and reach out to crisis supports if you need a litlle extra support today. RiverSeal 

[tyme]

Hey @TheRenegade345 , Missed ya. I've just caught up with a few of the above posts... sounds pretty full on. How are you feeling now?

[TheRenegade345]

@tyme 

Like absolute crap, Im losing the will to live

[tyme]

If you don't mind me asking, what are things you DO have that you are grateful for? @TheRenegade345 

[TheRenegade345]

@tyme 

I have a job and good friends and supportive family and a variety of hobbies and interests.

i certainly don’t take these for granted and have used these to help me get by for years. However their power is waning under the weight of routinely being rejected in dating for years and years. 

[tyme]

Thanks for sharing @TheRenegade345 .

Would you consider giving one of your mates a call tonight @TheRenegade345 ? Even for just a quick chat? It may help to 'get out your own head' a bit. No pressure. Only if you feel up to it.

[TheRenegade345]

@tyme 

I hate talking on the phone. I go mute on the phone. I can try and text though

[tyme]

Text is a good idea. Me too. I prefer text based convos. @TheRenegade345 

When I'm less busy, I respond to all the people I haven't responded to yet. I don't 'expect' an answer back from them straight away, but at least I can tick it off my to-do list. Some people just like checking in and I don't have time to do so.

There are also people who send me weird youtube videos, social media posts and stuff, and I honestly can't be bothered opening such things. 

I'll stop blahing... bottom line, if texting works for you, go for it mate 🙂

I'm going to be now. But wanted to say it's lovely seeing you here tonight.