Moving forward

[butterfly101]

no i wanna cry pain empty in chest and tummy i miss kids and family and yea

[Former-Member]

😞 feel for u
Hang in there
Sitting in nature might help too, feeling sunshine on your toes & watching the birds
It comes in waves, just have to get through it

[butterfly101]

yea i try i panic

[Faith-and-Hope]

Breathe. Keep chatting here . Others of us have felt so alone .... it will improve but it takes time, healing, reaching out .... baby steps and mindfulness .... others here can teach you more .... keep reaching ...

@butterfly101

[butterfly101]

ok thanks faith and hope what can i do i dont find pleassure in mothing

[Faith-and-Hope]

Are you seeing anyone @butterfly101 ? Your GP .... psychologist .... ? Sounds like depression is affexting you cos that's a classic symptom .....

Meantime, so you walk ? Whether you feel like it or not, walking will affect your mood hormones .... I think if it like a "have to" on days I don't feel like it .....

Eat well - food is medicine ....

Establish a sleep routine, and rest in low light if you can't sleep, to stay within the routine ....

Listen to music. The dynamic in the music can help support your own energy dynamic.

All these things create structure, and without structure we just drift ...

I hope that helps .....

🌷💕 F&H

[Decadian]

Sounds bad @butterfly101

What to do? What to do?

What do you do on the interent?

I remember a terrible Monday in 2004 - ah bleak! - I had moved here just a few months before and missed being near the beach and it was autumn and I still had to learn this is a cold house - it still is but I have had some improvements done

But a friend came to see me and suggested the Internet - fantastic idea - hey - I already wrote this today but I will write it again

I got a free month on dial-up - and sat and looked at it and said to myself "Now I have the internet - what do I do with it

Okay - it's easier than it used to be - I don't know if there still is dial-up - but still - you can type whatever into your browser and it will bring up something - anything

You know how you are having trouble finding something that interests you atm - it's the same for us - suggesting anything - and many of us - me too - have looked at life through the bleary eyes of having been crying a lot - not a bad idea to cry - not pleasant but it can't hurt - and not found a thing that is positive

I don't know where you are and why you are missing your family and your kids - so it's hard to know what to suggest - but one thing I do know

At the bottom of the hole we fall in is the obvious - it's the pits - it's the bottom - it's as low as you can go and who has been there - hands up

Yip - I'm holding my hand up - when you hit rock bottom there is only one way to go and that's up

I am so sorry life is so bleak - and that suggestions are falling on dry ground - or maybe falling on a pile of wet, soggy tissues - yes - I do know

Push your feet onto the bottom and you will come up - promise

In the meantime - do what you can - as bothersome and boring as it is - if you can walk - take a walk - you can read - read something - boring - yes - if I am reading something boring I often fall asleep -

Whatever it is - it is totally impossible for it to last forever -

Sheesh - this is the longest post I have written on this subject ever I am sure

But I wish you would feel better asap - I really do - I hate the thought of someone belng alone and so unhappy - that is a beastly way to live your life

Decadian [sending hugs]

[Former-Member]

Couldn't have said it any better @Faith-and-Hope 🌹❤👍

[Former-Member]

This post is going to be all over the place. I don't know what I hope to get out of posting it. Part of me knows I'm looking for a magic wand and part of me knows I'm just feeling really confused and want to have some light shed on what I'm feeling. As I just acknowledged on another post it is 3 years to the day that I tried to take my life and for the past three years that still fills my head so much. I'm trying to talk myself into moving forward but I always still keep coming back to the darkness. There are so many questions I have right now.

do you ever get past thinking about ending it?

how do you start living for you and not for others? 

Is there ever a point where you move on from just surviving?

how do you ever feel like you belong on earth?

I know I am supposed to feel like I'm moving forward but on days like today it doesn't feel like that, it just feels like an old record is playing in my head. It makes you think that you're kidding yourself that anything will ever change. 

I guess my biggest question though is what does moving forward feel like?

[TAB]

Answering that would be way above my pay grade @Former-Member sorry, I do feel for you though