Living with Ourselves

[tonys]

They are most definitely my words  @Sophia1 .   I walk through the fields of fog from time to time, For me its recreation and I draw sustenance there when the mind is searching.   But I have passed you there and your steed has look very tired.  If I'm wrong then I'm happy. 

I'll say It again.         Please pace yourself mate.....   You are very dear to me..                    tonys 

[Sophia1]

Hello @Jacques 

I am so sorry to hear that your mum has blood clots still there.

Were you able to listen to the doctor who explained the results  of the scan.

I am hoping that the management of the clots from home has been explained to you...

This might help to allay some of the anxiety around such news...It is a natural response to be very worried about someone whom you love so dearly.

Going to appointments with her and asking questions on her behalf if this is her wish, is a way of helping both of you understand what is happening more clearly.

If you are going... do not be afraid to ask questions...Write them down before the appointment as these appointments are often hurried by the specialists or doctors...

You are probably already doing all of this as you have been  caring for her for your whole life in one way or another.

Feeling tired is a natural response also to all of the above and everything that has occurred before.

Promise me that you will remind yourself that you are not to  blame for any of this. You have not failed anyone.  You have been a tower of strength even though it might not feel that way to you...

I know this from my own world...

Reading is such a wonderful way to get out of our heads and into a book.

From memory you only like non-fiction?

My sons are both the same.

I enjoy both.

Currently I have only read the forward which spreads over several pages and in itself is interesting of an author, Stine Pilgaard. The author is danish and the book has been translated into english.

I am intrigued..

I need to try to settle my mind a little more..One page a night....sometimes if I cannot get out into the garden due to weather....I look for my latest book.....

It is very close to my older son's birthday and this time as well as Christmas is very unsettling for me. I have just this last month passed through the first anniversary of mum passing.

Life can be very testing I know.

I hope that you can reintroduce reading into your life....If only one page every night before you close your eyes..

You have much on your plate....as I have said so often..

You do have you still ..

Hugs my friend

Sophia

[Sophia1]

@tonys 

Thank you for your words...

I will reply when I have more time and can allow more time to find my words..

Take care

Sophia

[tonys]

Hey there @Sophia1 .   Hope your sunny side up.   Mate,    I wouldn't pay too much attention to my posts.   Coming out of a 2 month coma,  on the end of a drip with goodness knows what in it,  pretty much disqualifies me from seeing anything straight.  Memories, faces, and places come and go, not helped by the fact that we both know there's a boarding house in my head with a few free loaders that surface from time to time when I really need em.   

Shrink called in the other day and asked me,    so how many people do you think you have in your head.   I looked him hard in the eye and said,    well how can I ever know.   'I don't know who they know"  .  .  .

I know you got everything all under control.      Its  your tree and your the one sitting in it..

Very best thoughts to you Sophia..     

Thought you guys should take this into account when opening strange envelopes from me.

@Appleblossom    @TAB     @EternalFlower   

Hope you are all enjoying a splendid Sunday..       

Speech therapist is coming tomorrow so I got until then too think up something that messes with her head,  .  .  . just a little .     So,  I'm learning a few lines of Chinese.                 

OK..     ok      I'm going                                                                                  tonys    mb  1

[TAB]

plus say you are left handed @tonys  did not realise was 2 months in a coma ? seriously ?

[tonys]

Yeh @TAB   They put me in an induced coma.  Gave me a heap of medical reasons but old tonys knows. . .  its was the only legal option they had left to shut me up.  Had I been consulted , I would have told them just to leave the cake trolly in my room.  would have worked just as well. . .     tns

Having a big fat snooze now so chat with you later TABsey.   

[TAB]

yeah sorta figured, but for 2 months ? thats like going to another planet or something @tonys 

[Jacques]

hi @Sophia1 

mum went to the dr today, they are putting mum on blood thinners again and they want her to go to sydney to have her veins stripped, she will have to go on a waiting list. she also now has to go onto insulin injections, as her diabeties is out of control. 

so will have a lot of expenses and worry over the next year. 

i didn't go into the dr with her, but i will next appointment with the diabeties educator. thank you for the tip, i never thought of going in with her. 

yes, gosh yyou have a good memory, non fiction for me, biographies and computer technical books, yes im a fully fledged nerd hahahahaha.

you are such an amazing friend, thank you so so much for your kindness and caring nature. it means the world to me.

my garden is going amazing, just sea soled them, the seaweed solution smells terrible but the plants love it, my gardenias are starting to re sprout. i have the most beautiful peach rose and my geraniums and pigs faces are fully flowering. 

take care my friend, hugs

jacques

[TAB]

..geraniums, pig face ok and black boys are sign was a house there 100 years ago @Jacques  @Sophia1  they fend for themselves ..

[Jacques]

almost @TAB my house was built in 1940 so only a few years off, yeah, they struggle out in central west nsw, the 45+ days they really struggle, especially the geraniums.