@Powderfinger I hear your frustration when people praise your resilience - I can't find it now, but I've come across a quote before which effectively says that we shouldn't have to be praised as resilient- we shouldn't have to go through the adversities we're put through in the first place- the focus should be on making the world itself less harsh to be in. E.g., people shouldn't be abusive; there shouldn't be prejudice and discrimination; affordable and secure housing shouldn't be difficult for people to access; etc.
Given everything you've been through, I can absolutely understand how you struggle to trust people. It makes so much sense. I also think that healing and trusting is possible, though - it'd likely take time, for sure, but it's possible. If you'd ever like to chat about it, feel free to book a call 
Take care 
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SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.