No one ever listens. Whenever my pop or myself need help nonone is around but when they need help we are often the first to help them. Well perhaps not entirely for pop his mates are always happy to help hes just too bloody stubborn to ask them.
Ive just done my hand in and reinjured my back becausr i favoured my hand not that it did any good. Somene in the family wanted something picked up but to do that the trailor needed to be emptied which had heavy things in it requiring lifting.
Pop has a throat infection plus other physical ailment ( arthritis flaring few other things) theres a reason he needs a carer! Hes angry and upset at me because i couldnt help properly and because i asked him to wait till this arvo when mums bf was home so he could give us a hand but noooo pop wanted it done right now and he tried to do it on his own but i could see as soon as he moved it he was already struggling and he wanst going to wait so ended up helping. I know loosing his independence is jard for him but he takes everything out on me and i even asked him if he would like to see a counsellor - that didnt go down well at all.
Mine you this person wanting these things done has no interest in helping and once the item is picked up if she doesnt want it its our resonsibility to move it on.
This is the dame person who keeps telling me my house is a mess and i dont do a good job cleaning up and also ' i dont look very happy to see them' when they visit pop. Yeah i wonder why..
Im waiting on my loan so i can hire a skip bun and removalists because no one will bloody help. I dont see how thats fair when none of the things that need removing are mine!
People dont see the after affects. They dont see pop moan and groan, complain, take things out on me or have his own hard nights because of a cough or pain from lifting heavy things or whatevet else it might be.
Im really over everything. I want to pack up and leave. After yesterday and today i want nothing more than to just dissapear.
