rough time

[Former-Member]

@outlander

Relationships can be very difficult. I always say to d, it’s not you, it’s them. And I say to you the same thing. It’s not you, it’s them. 

From what I have noticed on the forums you have always been kind, caring, understanding and friendly. You always go out of your way to include people and you go out of your way to be there for people. 

You were there for me last night when I was feeling so alone. And I appreciate that very much. Thankyou. 💜💖

Always remember that most people on here love and appreciates you. 

It’s comforting to know that if I ever feel alone, you’re there to chat with. 

Its very sad that your family don’t appreciate you. You do so much for them. 

As for the friends, that is very sad too. 

I don’t understand why people are like that, but I see understand what you mean. It sucks big time. 😢

💜💖💜💖💜💖

[outlander]

@Teejyou havent minimised anything, no i appreciate your help. Thank you. And thank you for sharing some of your story too.
I dont even know what my passions are. I think i know or i get into a groove and then something else pops up and makes me question it. I dont know my goals anymore. I dont really think ive had any or if i did i havent stuck with them. I dont know who i am under all the roles and expectations and my own mh. The only thing atm i my mind giving me grief about staying alive and i shoudnt be here. I wish i could breathe in peace just for a while.

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[outlander]

Thanks @MDT

[outlander]

How do I learn to be my own best friend when i have so many thoughts of being unworthy etc. I cant do one thing for myself without getting a lecture from.my brain or from someone else. I got so upset earlier i threw my painting in the bin. Over a brush. I couldnt get thr brush strokes right and rhe more i looked at it unfinished the worse i felt end result was the bin. I feel like im going crazy.

Baby steps and skill building... it feels like a never ending baby steps journey.
@Faith-and-Hope

[Faith-and-Hope]

It can definitely feel like that @outlander.

I will have a scout and see if I can find a list of suggestions.  That might help.

[outlander]

I wish offline was like here @Former-Member
I dont have much luck offline when it comes to people at all. I tend to stay away from people now and just have passerby convos 'hi how are you and keep walking.

[outlander]

Thank you @Faith-and-Hope i appreciate your help

[MDT]

@outlander have you tried writing things down? Like goals hobbies and such?

Could you pursue some of them as a job? Like go on etsy and have a look? Of you have a creative mind you can use that.
I remember you talking about nursing too. Could you maybe do that by correspondence?

[Former-Member]

Back later @outlander

Now I’ve upset d again. 

💜💖

[outlander]

I wanted to study but i cant afford it nor do i have the brain capacity right now @MDT maybe after june itll become easier. Itll have surpased my first sa attempt and hospital admission.

Yes i have tried wriring things down however i have no trust that people stay out of my room so i throw it out and i stopped writing. Just brought up to much crap it wasnt worth it.