Taking the plunge

[Maggie]

@Former-Member Really struggling atm. It's not the place, just me. I guess it takes more than a change of address for some of us. Part of the reason is new meds. They cause other unwanted side affects, but no real change where needed.

The meet and greet went well. They are a very welcoming caring group, all with their own struggles, not alone in that area. Mags and I have checked out some areas, met a few doggie mates. One poodle, but sadly I just found out he died last night. A jack Russell, Australian terrier, sausage dog and a few shitzus. All friendly. There's a park a block away which we've visited. I'm hoping once I feel more human, to make it there each day.

You will be looking forward to Wednesday and you psych app. Back spasms on top of all your nursing duties is a tough call. I won't go down the self care road, as it's too hippocratal of me to go there. Instead I'm send warm thoughts.

I did try the evening shower @Former-Member, much better. I need a long warm shower. 

Its a beautiful sunny day here today. I have planted pansies, poppies, petunias, lobelia, geranium and African violets in large pots on my balcony. Just in time for the rain!!!!! Take care @Former-Member

Hi @Zoe7@CheerBear

[Zoe7]

It seems like you are adjusting to the new place @Maggie but I know it is hard to simply 'feel better' when you just don't - I hear you Hon  Meds and side effects are difficult enough to deal with without them not seeming to work also. Mine seem to be working to a certain extent (after nearly 2 years of trialling different ones) but there are still days when I am very low and can't seem to drag myself up - so I totally get how it is for you. The only thing we can do is take each day as it comes and know you have support here and we care about you a lot. Sitting with you @Maggie 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

[Appleblossom]

 @Maggie

Even tho you may still struggle ...

the new place sounds as if it has the possibilities of being a good fit.

Hang in there.

[Maggie]

Thanks @Zoe7 I get so sick of it all really, and wonder if the constant struggle is worth it. Maybe I'm doomed or something. It's not for the want of trying. I've done the new meds over and over, the pain became unbearable, physical and emotional. I know you know exactly what I'm talking about, though I Cinderella  ( sincerely )  how did the spell check do that. Lol. wish you didn't. I left it hoping you get a giggle. I did. I haven't been to your thread for a few days. I hope you are okish. Warm thoughts 💜💜💜

[Maggie]

@Appleblossom I think in time I will see it's a goof fit too, I'm just a stubborn old bag who hates being told what to do, even if it's right. Humble pie is hard to digest, but I'll get there...eventually.. Hope you are okish. I have a good pic to drop off to your thread. 

[Zoe7]

There have been many, many times that I have wondered if the struggle is worth it too @Maggie and to be honest with you I can't answer that question myself. Even on days like today when I am doing okay it still feels like the world is closing in on me and everything is such an effort. Maybe I did too much yesterday and I am just tired - I know I get really negative when I am tired!  Today is a day to just get through and hope tomorrow is better. Sometimes that is all we can do - hope for something better. I think the one thing I have learnt from being on here is that hope is something we all have whether we can acknowledge or not - those are the times others hold onto hope for us. So tonight I am holding on to hope for you @Maggie and with that hope comes my support for what you are feeling right now. It is a tough place to be sitting - we both know this too well - but there is hope - you just have to find that small part inside of you that can feel it 

[Maggie]

@Zoe7 You made me cry ( good tears) my counsellor always says she holds a fist full of hope for me. So @Zoe7 heres to a fist full of hope. Standing with you always also, know that. Even when words don't come, and I struggle with words, big feels are there. 💕💕💕

[Zoe7]

Ditto every single word back to you Hon  Good tears are okay @Maggie 

[Zoe7]

@Maggie 💜💜💜

[outlander]

@Maggie