SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Owlunar,

I'm glad you feel OK today. I know its not balanced to expect everyone to always have good days, but when EVERYONE in my life is complaining - I can't handle it, well, makes sad on sad. These are things I can't do anything about, I don't know what to even say anymore to help, I use to have answers but just no energy. All i can do is pray and listen and not make it about me...

My only frequent visitor (guess that makes her my closest friend :/) has phoned and cried + 3times in 24hrs, going on and on, over & over about our church friend, with 5 children (7-15yrs) suddenly decling in hospital this week with stage4 cancer (in and out of consciousness) after a 7yr battle. My friends daughter (an RN) is nursing her atm and sadly relays information about her to her mum, whos telling me things i shouldn't dealt be hearing. Then she cries again, and can't talk. I have learned to just 'zip it' because anything I say she rebuffs, unless its about God (thank goodness we have that), but its hurting me to, even though I have left that church group for somewhere more local, I still feel it too. Its burdening me a lot. And reminds me of my mums pain who I can't help either. 

Fortunately the church friend does have a barrage of support and family and I think I'd just be in the way even to drop in flowers. All I can do is pray but yesterday i found a lovely handmade card to mail the family.

At the Ladies Reading Gp yesterday one 'friend' I thought I'd made, was indifferent with me. I don't know why. Her husband & her came and took away the dead tree trunk for me (their fireplace) a week ago, I thought that went wrll. I thought we were closer but its sad she serms to be holding me at a distance, hurts. People confuse me. 

Just got a letter from the Dr wanting me to come in and discuss my recent blood results. Iron studies I think it was, probably just the anemia still. Might be a coincidence but I think the anemia is reducing the anxiety, which I prefer. Don't wanna bother going back. And there's a $27 gap. Shell just be ell me ingest more iron. I'm tired. 

Also, someone here is pressuring me to change my username. People have been saying things. Makes me wanna leave. Kinda taps into the bpd abandonment and social phobia thing which doesn't help me feel supported here at all. Why can't people take me at face value? 😞

I need to move again before I get stiff. Lower back bad enough but the Rt shoulder / arm is giving me curry today with raking and digging 😞 but its bearable 🌷🌿

Thanks for listening 😢

[Former-Member]

Trouble Everywhere☔

[Appleblossom]

I used to hide in the grass like that in a country orphanage. Beautiful and SAD picture.  Glad you have a prayer life.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Ok @Former-Member ..... I found it ..... the soldier picture .....

Yeah, I have days like that.

💕

[Owlunar]

This must be tough @Former-Member - I have seen that your church friend lost her battle overnight - although she is in a better place now it is always hard - and she has five children - aw I can't imagine

Yes - just mail your card to the family - I know that when a young person dies it is chaos at home with so many flowers - wonderful to have them arrive but what to do with them later - for us it was bundles of cards every day for ages - it might be better to keep your card for a couple of weeks - it is more likely to be noticed then - but don't forget - it might be the most important card - and those cards are kept

Why should you change your user name? I have never thought there was anything wrong with it. Please don't leave - that wouldn't help anyone - just stick with the threads that are helpful for you. It's impossible to read everything that is happening here - I am sure this forum is far larger than the part I connect with - just sticking with the few I feel I am getting to know and that's the best we can do

Like yes - zip it and stay with the positive side of life - however small it is - and people confuse me at times also - I have a major confusion somewhere - that will pass like everything else - I keep wondering why my sisters sends me an email that matters not-at-all when I am going through my bad dates - it happened again recently - we can do without such impediments

Your anaemia might be what's making your tired - I get that - such try eating green leafy vegies - seeing as you like working outside get a punnet of spinach or silver beet - this is fantastic with salad and much better eating the small leaves and far better than what you buy at the supermarket - I have noticed mine growing from the reseeding - I will be able to harvest them soon - just have to let them get a big of a start

Did I send you my Wednesday pic - I will send it again anyway - 

Dec

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Owlunar, you're precious💜. Love your doggy picture, think I'll just stay in the box 'till it changes to Thursday lol

[Former-Member]

Its a fog!

[Former-Member]

I'm not coping, but maybe I am. Safe in bed atm. Bringing this discussion across from 'GoodMornin' Thread:
Hi @Former-Member, good to see you, I'm doing o k with 1/2 jug Bailie's under my belt & comedy on TV.
How ya doing Mohill? Things looking up for you i hope? You seem upbeat.
I keep getting the urge to jump in the car and go to a small town nearby.

¶Mohill: "Hello lovely @Former-Member
just keep driving until you get to our country town. we will look after you.
baileys a nice soother. settle yourself for tonight. xxx Will talk about older son in another thread and tag you.xxxx

¶Lapses 5:18 PM
I don't normally drink, wondering of tingling lips and chin means I've had enough? Where's @utopia, she might k ow lol
keep hitting the wrong buttons here haha
Legs tingling as well. Realised I haven't eaten all day, or had my pills, so just had cheese and biscuits.
WhooHoo, who says drinking is bad for us? LOL
At least its not every day 🍻🍷🍹

¶Mohill 5:31 PM
hello @Former-Member. A tad tiddly are we? why not? You mentioned food though! vital everyone needs food and water,
pills!! most definitely because whilst it is euphoric to feel that we haven't taken them it is vital that we do!!
chemical imbalance crap is not worth it. sets us back even further.
so dearest lapses ...laugh... lapses
take your flipping pills!!!
also rest and know that you are loved and needed on here dear one xxxxx

¶lapses 5:53 PM
@Former-Member, do I have to lol might mix with the alcohol, one day won't matter.
What is everyone doing tonight? My dog is being exceptionally affectionate I've shut up house and you'll be glad to know the Bailey's bottle is empty 😭
Made apt with GP next Mon. Will I last 'till then? Probably

[Former-Member]

our dear @Former-Member @Owlunar @Faith-and-Hope @Appleblossom @soul

we are watching you laugh as you do for all of us

rest easy precious one

we shall chat some more soon

know that you are valued and loved on here xxx you have given much

hope that the baileys headache isn't too unbearable

sleep tight xxxxx

[Former-Member]

Aww shucks @Former-Member, please don't leave us! I get a bit self absorbed at times. Can't face the world today. Wanted to sh earlier but beat that. Resting, watched heartbeat DVD on repeat all day. Love the way they talk, the scenery, little bits of humour and the music, all those 50's 60's songs, good background.

I just put fish and veg in oven so I'll eat, maybe take today's pills, hang on, the 20min timer just went off, better go get it.

Hey, don't worry,, I wear everybody thin, try not to but can't seem to help it. Best not get involved. People get tired.

"Spirit Willing, flesh is weak"
"They know not what they do"
... 🌷🌿