& we have lift off

[Tay]

Hi NikNik and all, my first post for awhile and I'm not sure if this is the right place or if I should start a new thread.<BR /><BR />I have clinical depression, PTSD, acute anxiety ( heaps of panic attacks) and am also an alcoholic/addiction issues.<BR /><BR />I'm thankful that I have been stabilised on the correct dosage of medication and have read, practiced and finally get MINDFULNESS. Lately this has been my saving grace.<BR /><BR />I have a partner who has depression, PTSD from childhood events, and anger management issues. He accepts that he is depressed but refuses to take medications because of the sexual side effects. <BR /><BR />For many months, after I came out of a 28 days rehab , apart from trying to keep myself together I am also acutely aware of my hubby's fragility. We are both under a lot of pressure from life basically - home to be repossessed, flat broke etc. Although I am doing my best to face these issues head on, my husband has decided to ignore them. So, I'm on my own.<BR /><BR />Yesterday he was assessed by a psych and diagnosed with melancholic depression - a complex mixture of numerous forms. Flat, delayed speech, slow thought processes, memory loss, angry outbursts for no reason. I get scared and I just want him to start his antidepressants.<BR /><BR />I feel guilty for taking care of myself first - sometimes I just get in the car and park at the local shopping centre for time out. Because I have been sober for 6 months I'm at the point where I think ONE little thing could trigger a relapse resulting, as we all know, major depression and risk of harm to myself and others.<BR /><BR />I suppose what I'm asking is - after all that - is should I be seeking advice in the carers forum? I'm kind of a dual diagnosis here. Yes, I am a psych nurse and so is my husband - maybe at times like this too much knowledge is a bad thing. See, now I'm dribbling on and confusing myself.

[Alessandra1992]

Hey Tay, credit yourself with progress that's awesome you've been sober 6 months...and ssounds as though you would benefit from both forums, I certainly do!
I think you have to look after yourself so that you can help your husband..and it maybe he has his own path to follow..be consistent in what you are doing, it will keep you heading in the direction you want your life to be.. You're still working which is a great as that income will help you find alternate accommodation down the track..
In terms of your house being repossessed, is there any chance you can renogoiate with your bank?
It sounds pretty rough, does your work know your situation? Maybe you can get some leave to sort this urgent issue around housing..
Take care and keep up your great personal growth in your journey!!

[chemonro]

Yes, what she says, Tay. You've done really well to get this far. Don't let the setbacks knock you around. Plan the supports you can use for the bad times (because they always come). 

Oh and welcome to the forum! 

[NikNik]

Hi @Tay 

Your post made me smile. I'm so happy to hear about your progress.

I wanted to let you know that tomorrow night is Topic Tuesday night. We will be focusing on MINDFULNESS 🙂

From 6pm - 8pm AEDT a psycholgist who specialises in Mindfulness will be joining the forums to answer questions and give some practical tips on integrating mindfulness into daily life.

It sounds like you have a good understanding of mindfulness & we would love you to join the discussion tomorrow night.

The session will take place here