Life can be a Pain

[Zoe7]

So glad it gave you a little lift in your day @Owlunar I hope the rest of your day went better and today is good to you ❤️ I am still at home unwell and I am definitely not going to be back at work this week. I am really disappointed because it is our last week before the holidays and I miss the kids ...but can't be helped.

[Owlunar2]

Hi @Oaktree 

It's really tough to get through special weekends like Easter alone  - I know  - it's really hard feeling isolated at festive seasons - I've had to sometimes so I hear you and I feel for you.

I will be having lunch with my daughter and son-in-law at their place which is good  - normally they drop in with Easter Eggs for me and then that's it. Things were pretty rough between my daughter and me for about a year  - both of us were battling with health issues  - things have been better recently  - which is really great.

I'm sorry you will be alone  - the hours can drag  - I hope people will be around here during Easter  - I'm sure lots of people here will be alone 

Sending virtual hugs 

Owlunar 

Mumma Bear 

🐰🐇🦉

[Shaz51]

Hello my mummabear @Owlunar2 😍

[Owlunar2]

Hi @Zoe7 

I'm sorry you are feeling off colour  - I hope things are improving  - I know how much you love your kids and miss them whenever you can't work.

It was really tough for front line workers like yourself during covid  - I had my support workers who had to keep working regardless  - one of my cousins works in aged care and got covid twice  - so really  I was okay most of the time  - I read a great deal and bought lots of books on-line and thought of it as "My Great Novel Fest". 

You were understanding about my aunt's funeral at the time  - I appreciated that - I was able to go to my uncle's funeral not long after though now all my uncle's have gone  - I was very close to the family in Hobart - I miss them but I am in contact with the youngest one who lives in Canada. Emails are great.

I have a new psychologist  - I am not sure how this will work out - my shoulder was painful for it's own reasons and I felt off colour for a few days until I went to the pain clinic today. They gave me something extra for a few days which will help but I really think it was really friendly and accepting there as always and my heart feels lighter 

I like to keep a friendly attitude  - people love that and it helps 

All my best wishes for Easter 

Mumma Bear 

Owlunar 

🐰🐇🦉

[Owlunar2]

Hey @Shaz51 

How are you  and poor little kidney battling along - none of your choices about your health sound pleasant 

But you are always here and available which is something really special 

I wonder about Mr Shaz and hope he's okay at least some of the time  - it's hard yards for both of you 

Look after yourself  - you are worth it - and keep on keeping on - my dear friend 

Mumma Bear 

Owlunar 🦉

🐰Easter wishes🐇

[Zoe7]

Feeling a lot better today but very fatigued @Owlunar2 I went outside into the garden for a bit but was too tired to do much. Think I need a few more days of rest before I tackle anything again. On the plus side, I did a little painting as I could do that sitting down - but much the same - a little at a time then back to the couch to rest with the fur babies.

I really wanted to be at work today but I am glad I wasn't because I would not have lasted for long. I do miss the kids but I really have not been well enough (the attept at gardening proved that).

I know how much your uncle and auntie meant to you Mumma Bear and am grateful you are still in contact with your cousin ❤️

I hope the new psychologist works out for you and the pain meds continue to help.

I have been without pain meds for weeks because of my GP leaving but grateful for my pdoc who gave me scripts this week ....the upside of being unwell, I could see her earlier than planned.

[Owlunar2]

Aw @Zoe7 

Being without pain meds  - that is really among worst things when you really need them  - I really know this. Would this have been because you GP pulled up stakes with little warning. Yes  - that's what happened  - I really feel bad - yes - angry about that for your sake  - I've had glitchy patches myself so I get it 🥺. I'm glad your pdoc gave you scripts 👍. I hope the pain is settling now

It can be hard putting our lives back into even keel after a patch of poor health and other issues  - I know how much you love your kids  - I know you are on school holidays now  - I really hope the break helps to build your strength again  - breaking the circuit can help.

I have decided not to continue with the new counsellor  - she had her programme and was not listening to my comments that I didn't want to get into stuff about my family of origin  - I know how dysfunctional it was - 3 generations in a small house  - I am so grateful for my Gran though  - she was the best truly  - more of a mother than my real mother  - I remember how much your Nan meant to you 

I know you will look after yourself and you have your fur babies  - I will be thinking of you over Easter  - and it's a first  - I have been invited to my daughter's home for lunch on Easter Sunday - things seem to have healed between us which is wonderful 

🐇Easter blessings Zoe and hugs🐰

Mumma Bear

Owlunar 🦉

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[Zoe7]

Hey Mumma bear ❤️

Yes lack of pain meds was because of my GP leaving. They still have not replaced her with the new GP that was supposed to start a month ago. I am looking for a new clinic/GP. My psych gave me a few recommendations and I have looked into them - two are only available during my work times but one looks promising. I am going to look more into her next week (after Easter) as I am still not very well so taking it easy today again. The pain is better so that is a positive but the extra meds have upset my stomach so have also been dealing with that - better than back, ear, throat pain though 👍

I completely understand you not continuing with that counsellor - it can be so hard to find one we click with (I certainly have been extremely fortunate there). Therapy should have our needs at the centre of it and going back over old ground is not always what is needed nor sought. We can work on things without having to deal with the 'way back' past. When we already have that insight, we no longer need to rehash old ground. My psych is great with that - we often talk about 'old' things but as part of the present. She knows I have that insight already and does not push to 'put words in my mouth' or take therapy in a direction not helpful for me. 

Yes my Nan was my best friend - I am very impressed you remembered how much she meant to be ...much like your Nan. That grandmother-grand daughter relationship is a very special one. With all that we were dealing with in our family (and me personally), I could always rely on my grand parents to be a safe place. I spent so much of my childhood with them and will always be grateful for how much they gave me.

I read with absolute happiness your daughter inviting you for Easter lunch. That is something I honestly did not expect but am so, so happy for you. I hope it is an enjoyable day but aside from that - your daughter reaching out in this way is a break through. I am not sure what is happening Easter Sunday but no doubt there will be a lunch at either my sister's place or my parents'. Either way, I will have to travel, but it is only about half an hour away so not too far. I will of course take Toby but Clover will stay home. She was much more social as a kitten but now she is a Mumma's girl lol

Much love and huge hugs to you @Owlunar2 I love seeing you here when you are able to Mumma bear ❤️❤️❤️