Dealing with intrusive thoughts - my struggle!

[outlander]

Thats ok @Molliex we all go into our own bubbles at times. Sometimes its a form of self protection as well.

I use to do the same thing with SH. I was so overwhelmed by SI that seemed the quickest and easiest way to cope and just desparate to get the mind to be quiet even for a little while. Things in my world were really tough and didn't know how to manage anything so was on the edge already. SH soon become an addiction. I stopped trying to cope or listening to other methods that mightve helped such as distractions so trying to fight my way back out of that was really hard, mix that with being unable to cope with things in my world, constant appointments to professionals (even though i know they were trying their best to help and keep me safe) it also led to a breakdown and led to planning one of my attempts that i intended to carry out once i was finished at the appointment but was put in hospital before i had the chance to act on it. Im very much aware how easy it is to turn to that and also how hard SI and SH urges are to control but please find some other ways that might help. If your not sure of some ways to cope, im more then happy to share some of mine with you.
Sorry that ended up as a long winded post, but wanted to show you that i understand that worry, scariness, overwhelm, uncertainty and all that goes with it.
Im here for you.
💟💟💟

[Molliex]

Thanks for such a thoughtful and personal reply @outlander. I definitely understand how SH can be addictive, I already feel the pull. I think hospital is looking likely for me, maybe after my trip home.

I have some coping methods, it's mostly at night when I can't sleep. I have some new meds to help with that.

Its so so hard 💜❤️🦋  

[Molliex]

How'd your day go @Angels333? 🌻 🌻 

[Shaz51]

lots of hugs @Molliex 

Hello @outlander , @Angels333 , @eth , @Iris 

[Angels333]

Hey, good afternoon @Molliex Today was up and down.  I got most of the cleaning done that I wanted except for some belongings of my 16yo daughter  that need sorting out.   It isn't an easy task for her as she has a lot of artworks to fit into her bedroom they're currently on my kitchen table!   I've already cooked dinner so I feel good about that.   Unfortunately SH has dogged me all day,  I've had a couple of panic attacks,  but I have kept them quiet and internal.

How has your day been?

[outlander]

it is really hard @Molliex definetly.
hospital isn't all that bad. I have been there and found it actually helpful once I was able to settle.
nights are hard, I have some games on my phone and a book as well incase it comes around of a night time.

[Molliex]

Sounds like a mixed day @Angels333, good you could achieve so much despite your struggles.🦋🌻

I had an early birthday celebration at my parent's which was nice. My daughter loves visiting them. I'm cooking dinner now. Thoughts are very very hard to ignore, but I'm managing for now 

[Molliex]

Nights are hard @outlander, I tend to read as well.

I'm not completely against hospital, but it would mean my family knowing how bad it all was, because we'd need help. There's also my work.. It seems very overwhelming as an option right now.

I really appreciate your support, when you've got so much going on. I'm thinking of you 💚💕🦋

[BlueBay]

Hi @outlander  did you have your psych visit today?? I’m trying to remember xxx

[outlander]

not me today @BlueBay xo