Am Not Coping

[Faith-and-Hope]

I don't think that was the way it was meant @Zoe7 ..... but I could hear how it came across to you ...... and I am so sorry ...... 😔

I was out and about with my girls, which you will have seen, and just popping in infrequently ....... I think the comment was intended to be comforting but missed the mark, unfortunately.

I am so glad you came back. I am missing you, and I know others are too ......

♥️

[Zoe7]

I know it wasn't meant that way @Faith-and-Hope but in the state I was in - and after recent 'events' on here - that is definitely how I took it in the moment. It really was unfortunate wording considering that I have been feeling so much like an after thought - and knowing it is so hard for me to ask for help and then when it doesn't happen - how would anyone feel! 

Sometimes I feel like because I prefer giving support that I don't need it myself. Today was just an accumulation of how I have been feeling on here - and not wanting to be here and being constantly triggered by others in crisis when I need some support too - if that makes any sense!

[Faith-and-Hope]

Yes @Zoe7 ..... it does ......

I was thinking of you yesterday when I was at the museum. I saw a First People's exhibition and found a paintbrush and etching took on display. I will transfer them from phone to iPad and post them for you ....,

Hang on .....

[Faith-and-Hope]

♥️ @Sans911 ......

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope I'm hanging on - presuming the great image wait (conspiracy) will begin again lol

You know Hon, I think I am burnt out - maybe that is all it is (plus the ongoing muddle and THAT post on the weekend) - all adding to my negative feelings here!

[Zoe7]

Even @Sans911 doesn't know what to say to me  Hope you are ok @Sans911 

@Faith-and-Hope I think an apology or at least a recognition that there was yet another major 'stuff up' would be the least that could have been done - just another thing to add to the list of reasons I don't matter!

[Faith-and-Hope]

You matter to us very much @Zoe7 ..... and I think @Sans911 was trying to work out whether you would manage with a group of us here with you tonight, or whether a one-to-one was going to be easier for you .....

Its just another way of showing support for you.  @Sans911 is a real sweetheart .....

♥️

[Faith-and-Hope]

Okay ......

Early indigenous paintbrush made from emu feathers, wood and grass.

Early undepigenous engraver made from bone, wood and grass ....

[Zoe7]

Yes she is @Faith-and-Hope   I am just feeling so lost and alone right now. Everything feels so 'wrong' - I don't have any faith or trust in anything (apart from you ) but I can't place that kind of pressure on you to always be around to help me - or anyone for that matter - so the story of my life continues - I am on my own!

[Faith-and-Hope]

My thoughts are with you all the time @Zoe7, asI know yours are with me ...... you are not alone in that sense ....,, and if I am thinking about you as much as I am, others are too.

💐💕