Am Not Coping

[Faith-and-Hope]

It was a quiet one for us this year re family @Former-Member ..... two of mine are still withdrawn with social anxiety, although one ventured out more than I anticipated, which was a joy for me. Apart from grandmother joining us for lunch, other family was me catching up with them one-to-one ..... or a fly-past visit to our home.

I got out and about a lot with it all though ..,, part of my self-care is to escape home .....

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Former-Member @Former-Member @eth ...... 👋

Thanks for Likes ......

Feeling a bit lonely in the aftermath of visiting our other city. Do t know what I would do without the love and care of the forums ....

My S2 got up and off to uni this morning ..... D3 still in bed, knocked about a bit by the trip too I guess ..... and. D2 too ......

D1 called with a medical issue ..... and here I am on the other side of the continent ...... such is life ......

[eth]

Sending warm wishes your way @Faith-and-Hope.  It must be hard relocating so often.  Here if you want to talk.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Thanks @eth ..... I really appreciate it .....

It’s probably all the sort of heart-felt stuff ..... you just have to feel it and get through it ......

Our situation closes in on me a bit sometimes ....... ed issues can be so long term ...... watching what my mr is doing to himself, with the inside view into the hidden behaviours ..... and seeing the effects of it on his physical form ...... and not being able to do any more than I have already done ......

So, it means focussing all my attention on other things, but today, tired from the last two weeks and a couple of flights, it’s hard to do ..... it creeps in ......

Have set myself some errands to crawl around to (don’t feel like doing them) and will reward myself with a massage at the end of it ...... that’s my carrot ..... and take things from there.

The Lenten eating program is finished, and this week has no “requirements” at all ...... so I might seek out a mini cheesecake somewhere too.

I want to look into a mosaics class, but today is not the day for that.

[BlueBay]

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[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @BlueBay .... 👋💕

[eth]

mmmm Massage and cheesecake @Faith-and-Hope sounds like self-care to me.  I have close friends up north who celebrate Orthodox Easter too.  Over the years I've noticed that the fasting in Lent can mean they have less physical energy and it takes time to re-adjust to the free eating afterwards.  I imagine things get even more complex with Mr's eating habits at these times.  It's no wonder you're feeling tired - travel + constantly supporting others + living with a sense of things about to explode at any time would knock anyone around.   Do your chores really need to be done today?  Maybe it's time for being gentle with yourself and just doing self-care for today?

[Former-Member]

Hugs for you @Faith-and-Hope a lot of chopping and changing going on and must be very difficult. I hope your D1's medical issue is ok and glad that you are just a phone call away for her, though I understand it would be nice to be closer. Great that S2 went to uni this morning after a busy time. Hope you can have some time for you today.
I'm home sick at the moment, but we are almost at school holidays here...
take care

[Faith-and-Hope]

Thanks @eth 💕 ..... running errands is self-care in the sense that it gives me reason to be out of the house without having to answer to implied judgements ...... the ed has major control issues attached and while ai can stand my ground, that gets tiring too.

So it’s six of one, half a dozen of another I guess ......

Thanks @Former-Member 💕...... sorry to hear that you are unwell. It must be a bit of a relief that holidays are around the corner .....

Must start on multivitamins again myself.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Zoe7 ..... 👋💚🦋💐💕