Am Not Coping

[Former-Member]

Thank you, @Zoe7. 🌷

Unfortunately, understanding the concept of ‘intention versus impact’ in our thinking brains doesn’t make things hurt any less in our feeling hearts. 😕

[Zoe7]

That is where I am still so disappointed @Faith-and-Hope - the lack of support! One thing being left or forgotten about is a mistake that can be addressed but multiple 'errors' and no follow up really does not make me feel like this is a safe place any more - constantly expecting another 'hit' that is inescapable!

I hope those kids grow up to 'change the world' - but I don't even have faith in that happening  My whole entire outlook on life is so totally 'broken' (just like me!)

[Zoe7]

@Former-Member ...and the more we think - the harder it is to reconcile what we 'see' and how we feel with what is intended or the actual reality versus our perception of reality 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hearing you @Zoe7 ...... and I am going to keep believing for both of us at the moment along with continuing to send you healing thoughts ......

[Former-Member]

I feel like @Faith-and-Hope is a beacon of light sitting on one shoulder, @Zoe7 and I am a black hole sitting on the other … polar opposites, but opposites that care about you very much. I feel like I'm in the way (probably just my brain being broken and mean), so I’m going to slink back into the book room and let you two talk. But if you need dark, gloomy reassurance, you know where to find me. 🌷

[Zoe7]

I am glad someone is 'believing' for both of us @Faith-and-Hope 

The paintbrush and engraver are very cool  Still waiting on the iris though 

I've stopped crying at least now but have taken extra meds because I am so tired from today that I need to sleep to get through tomorrow (if I make it). I'll stay here until they start working though.

[Faith-and-Hope]

We do need dark gloomy reassurance too @Former-Member ..... we need everyone.  Nobody is “it” on their own .....

♥️

[Zoe7]

Slink away if you need to @Former-Member - but know that I love having you around - have since our first conversation. There is a light within all that darkness that I see so often - that you don't seem to be able to see! The paradox here is that that is probably exactly the same thing that you would say to me - we are just two messed up little black holes lol

[Zoe7]

Hi @Former-Member and @Former-Member I 'see' you both there 

[Former-Member]

Yes, @Zoe7. I was about to pull out the 'pot ... kettle' line again. 🙂