A Life of Trauma and Tragedy (Possibly Triggering Content)

[Emelia8]

Thanks @Snowie @Anastasia 🌷

@Jynx No, Im not going to waste anyones time on a one sided phone convo. If I am unable to convey that I need help and why, they would likely hang up thinking Im some sort of prank caller. I dont think I could handle that right now. Trying to get onto Chat, but its not available 😔

[Clawde]

Hi my love @Emelia8 @I wish you my friend in real time sorry we can't be but anyway you are amazing so please stay in touch Clawde really does love you chook. 😇❤️👏😇🙋‍♀️🌻just wishing you were my friend and glad so glad you are ❤️

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@Emelia8 wrote:

Thanks @Snowie @Anastasia 🌷

@Jynx No, Im not going to waste anyones time on a one sided phone convo. If I am unable to convey that I need help and why, they would likely hang up thinking Im some sort of prank caller. I dont think I could handle that right now. Trying to get onto Chat, but its not available 😔

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@Emelia8 wrote:

Thanks @Snowie @Anastasia 🌷

@Jynx No, Im not going to waste anyones time on a one sided phone convo. If I am unable to convey that I need help and why, they would likely hang up thinking Im some sort of prank caller. I dont think I could handle that right now. Trying to get onto Chat, but its not available 😔

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[Anastasia]

Hope your time with Holly and the Meerkats put a small smile on your pretty face Em 🙏💕

I'm sorry I haven't responded to any of your questions. I can't explain my head other than an overload with no ability to communicate much at the end of each day both here and irl. Thank you for caring enough to ask it means a lot. I thought if I bring you up to date it may take your mind of your dreadful day even for a few seconds. My heart is breaking for you Em and it really does seem awfully unfair how it has turned out. The therapist at your oncologists may be a good buffer? Better than no therapist especially given the circumstances, yes? 

I'm glad you have your little meerkats to confide in...almost like the Universe/your Mum knew you'd need extra support right now? 

My boy had a fabulous day today. He's pooped, understably so as he's not long home. We had a good chat last night and if he was completely honest then I now understand where his head is at. I hope there's not more to it...time will tell. We have put some plans in place to alleviate some stresses that he was carrying around.  I've caught up a little at work. No accolades as boss away but I'm happy and feel a sense of accomplishment so that will do for now. Tomorrow I intend on starting he job that I had intended to start on my return to work on the 4th of January so I am excited and happy finally to be at that stage. I have to go back for a mammogram and ultrasound so have a telehealth appointment tomorrow just for the referral which my de will email to the pathologist and I'll go in March. My bf is in denail about his results so I'll just keep dropping seeds and hoping that eventually he'll go. Son 2 is doing ok, nothing to report so that is good. Love and hugs and here for you beautiful, always @Emelia8 

[Clawde]

@Emelia8 @You got this you alone know what to do you have the strengths and integrity and intelligence 

but I have a plan for all of all to have the best future that a future with hope can be for real 

seriously I want to help because it will help me air what I have learnt becoming a man from a man in a woman's body during this day and age, I really believe I should have been born in the future but here I am, I promise I don't have all the answers but I have learnt a few true facts and answers along the way, I will only share if someone wants to honestly here I mean hear love from Clawde 

[Emelia8]

Thank you @Clawde 🌹🙏

I have few words tonight, Im sorry.

But yes, I would very much like to hear what you have to share. 👂👀💞

[Emelia8]

Thank you @Anastasia 💞

Yes, I needed a distraction. So thank you for updating me on how things are going for you. I cant respond now, between shaking hands and waterlogged eyes, its a bit hard. Will talk tomorrow, okay?

Thank you @Clawde ... and yes, you are a dear friend.

I have been trying to get onto Sane chat all night. Without success. Unavailable the whole time.

I should just go to bed. Though I'm afraid to go to sleep. But I have to do something. Need a distraction.

Em 🌷

[Clawde]

@Emelia8 @Why are sorry ..

? ..? This makes no sense my em ❤️

[Emelia8]

Nothing in my life is making a lot of sense tonight @Clawde 😔💔

[Clawde]

Hi @Emelia8 

@it all will soon it soon I have the amazing lessons from my old people Elders but mostly my grandmother who has passed on years ago but she left me with this.

6 mindfull lessons 

1 count your blessings

2 smile no matter what 

3 every thing is big until it is small 

4 every body on earth has a good point, but sometimes it's harder to find than most just keep looking

5 have faith and hope even if it is in a rock (paint it ) 

6 imagine and dream and own your best self 

there are 12 other crucial points which are all about but at the end of the day ie put your best self forward do what is right with only you only you as your bestest dearest friend , I will text more tomorrow my grandmothers old fashion mind help, until then sleep well love time is on our side, I am so sorry I cannot come over and make you a cup of tea and talk but know I am just here in between internet crap but am with you  tonight dream nice dreams all is going to be OK love from Clawde

[Emelia8]

Thank you @Clawde 👍🌹🙏💕

Wise words indeed. 

Em 🌻