Running

[Jynx]

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@ENKELI wrote:

@Jynx I don't know why but the colours made me think of you. If you are happy with the Gerberas then they are now known as Jynx and Jynx Too 🫂

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AWW I love it @ENKELI 😍

Hehe double the Jynx, double the fun? 😋

How are you going at the moment hun? 

@avant-garde hi sweets - just want you to know I've been reading through your thread and catching up on stuff. I'm so sorry to read those things about your mum and her alters. Just want you to know I see you, see your grief and confusion and rage. I see your strength, but wish you never had to build so much of it just to survive. Because it means you were robbed of that gentleness that we often associate with a mother's embrace. 

I am proud of you for talking about it, and hope that it was good to be able to get some of it out.

How are you doing this arvo anyway? 

[avant-garde]

@Jynx 

My left eyelid is twitching which tells me that I'm emotionally overloaded...

I'm... I stop to think about how I am to give you an honest answer and my eyes fill up with tears...

[ENKELI]

@Jynx I am ok. How are you my darling Jynxy?

@avant-garde do you find it cathartic to cry? I am disappointed in your mother, though I don't have a right to be. What made her become that awful excuse of a parent? It certainly wasn't you. 
You're in my prayers sweetheart xo

[avant-garde]

@ENKELI 

It was my dad's fault, mum was fine before he hit her

Crying helps

[Jynx]

Oh @avant-garde that is so fair. You have a good connection to your body and its signals - I get that eye twitch too, I think it's sensory overload mostly. But sensory overload is always intimately tied to my emotional state too. 

Have you had much on today? 

Going alright @ENKELI just been pottering mostly today. Got a butternut squash staring at me, gonna chop it up during my break I think - making pumpkin and sage risotto 😋 How are you?

[avant-garde]

@Jynx 

I just got home after 7 long hours. 

ENT appointment (officially discharged now thank goodness) 

Art group (messing around with waterproof paper) 

Grocery shopping 

Now I'm back home listening to the radio curled up on my bed

[ENKELI]

@Jynx butternut has the best flavour. Enjoy that risotto!

I have nothing on, watering the plants and think of something for dinner. 

[avant-garde]

There's a reason I can't handle anything on my face...

TW: sexual abuse

Content/trigger warning

My mum isn't small by any stretch of the imagination...
Her opportunistic alter... there was only one way I could satisfy her...
She wouldn't always notice when I couldn't breathe...
When I went unconscious...
And I don't think she cared...

I had to feel heard, I needed to speak it because I couldn't let it go until I did

[Jynx]

That's truly awful @avant-garde - sounds like it's been sitting heavy for you. I am glad you were able to share with us.

What do you feel you might be needing right now hun? Validation and support? Or unpacking/tryna understand? Distraction? We're here for you.

(づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡

Hehe ty @ENKELI hope you find some good noms 💜

[avant-garde]

@Jynx 

Valuation and support, I just wish someone could actually hold me...