life is just to hard better off not living

[john74]

Hi Havent posed for a while but things just go from bad to worse to the point I just want to give up and end the misery once and for all. Ex Partner left over a month ago taking most household items after a few months of abuse. leaving me in a financial crisis unable to pay the rent no tv or couch etc. i have tried to find another person to share the house and rent with me have found someone but the agent is being uncooperative and messing around about their application and they have a new job in my town starting next week. i also am not coping living alone with no social contact with anyone lost my family in a nasty dv marriage breakdown in 2022. I am getting two lots of counselling but it doesn't help i,m just over life everyone thinks I am rubbish despite me being polite in my dealings with everyone . its just too hard and I m better off not being here its the only way to get rid of the hurt and pain once and for all.

[RiverSeal]

Hey @john74 thank you for sharing your experiences with the Forums community!

It sounds like you have been through a lot recently and breakups can be challenging at the best of times. You are demonstrating your resilience and strength in sharing your experiences with the Forums community. It can be challenging to be vulnerable with your peers and you are brave and strong in doing so.

It can be really important to stay connected when we are feeling overwhelmed by thoughts of suicide. Reaching out to crisis support when we are in the moment and having a chat with someone can be really helpful. How do you cope when you have thoughts that it's better off that you are not here?

I will pop a few support numbers here, so you have them handy:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Lifeline Chat 

Beyond Blue: 1300 22 4636 or Beyond Blue Webchat

1800 RESPECT: 1800 737 732, www.1800respect.org.au 

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or Online Counselling 

If in immediate danger: 000  www.triplezero.gov.au/triple-zero/How-to-Call-000

Thanks again for sharing your thoughts and experiences!

Take care

RiverSeal 

[MJG017]

@john74Hi John, so sorry to hear your doing it really tough at the moment.  I can empathize with not having any family or friends around for support... it's extremely hard!  I too feel like I'm polite and respectful with people but never seem to be able to build anything with them and just end up feeling like I'm worthless.  I try to keep reminding myself that it's not true and that I can't let people change how I feel about myself.  Even so, sometimes it's so hard to blame just bad luck, or being introverted, or whatever reasons.... I like to think that it's always better sticking around, as why would I want to not be around just to please people who don't seem to appreciate me anyway?!  I mean what gives these people the right to make you feel this way?  Nothing!  So keep fighting John, there are people out there who care and will appreciate you and support you... the trick is not giving up and finding them.  They are out there!

[john74]

• Thanks @RiverSeal I appreciate your support but it doesn't matter what anyone says or does it doesn't change the constant pain l am in and it just shows no signs of getting better ending life is the best and only option l just can't do it any longer 

[john74]

Hi @MJG017 l appreciate your kind words if there was a glimer of hope it would spur me on to fight on longer but unfortunately there is nothing if anything it gets worse and l will never find anyone who cares. My former partner did but she ended it for no reason suddenly 2 months ago. 

[Ru-bee]

Hi @john74 it sounds like this is a really hard time for you and I hear that it can be so hard to see any glimpses of hope right now. It can be really hard to see the light when we're in such a dark space. I want to assure you that I care, and this community cares and we're here to support you.

I wonder if there have been any times recently when things might have felt even a little bit lighter? 

I wonder if you can let me know how you're going today and whether you're currently safe?

[MJG017]

@john74I can totally understand how it may seem hopeless at the moment with everything that's going on currently.  I certainly don't want to downplay how difficult it must be for you right now in any way.  But there is always hope, and things do get better with time.  For whatever reason your former partner left, that doesn't mean everyone else will treat you the same.  It must have been so painful, as it would be for anyone, but just keep reminding yourself that it's not the end, finding the right person could make all the difference.  You no doubt need to take some time before you're ready for that, but you can get there.  It's definitely worth keeping up the fight for.  Keep in mind calling one of those support numbers as I'm sure it would really help.  There are people who care.  Like me, they may not know you personally, but that doesn't mean we don't care about someone so clearly in a lot of pain.  Please don't give up John.