I had a stint in a psych ward a couple of years back because my brain just decided things were too much to cope with and stopped all emotion; it was the weirdest feeling as I'm mostly over-sensitive at the best of times.
We only have a finite amount of staying power Adge. What you're dealing with is overwhelming; that's the term I used a lot on the ward.
I asked you earlier what issue tonight was most affecting you because separating each worry or task is better than trying to cope with it all at once. Home-Care can do shopping, cleaning, lawns and help with personal hygiene if necessary to focus on other things. There's funding out there if you hunt around.
Your sleep is paramount; I use prn anti anxiety med's to help get 'quality' sleep now and then if I get a bit confused or shaky. This tops up energy to keep going.
Sometimes it's the simple things that work. I pushed my bed against the wall and slept without med's for the first time in 20 years. (lots of rape scenario's) I felt safer and more in control than ever facing my door with no way of getting at me from behind.
I know this has been a long rant. I tend to focus on practical support instead of emotional as it's not my forte
I can't imagine what you're going through, and it's probably unfair to expect similar outcomes from you. One step at a time is the only way to do it. One tiny peaceful moment leads to another; tomorrow's another day.
I really do wish you well on your journey Adge. Here for you...
I had a hell of a time getting "treatment" for my neck. There are a million and one things that I just do not know about. I have learned a lot from casual reading on this site and learning to apply things to my family or to my self.
@Adge At least you eventually you got treatment. That is some thing. Phew! It should not have been the way it happened. Didn't your GP tell you the right protocol at first?? Why did the ambos keep coming out, when they were not going to treat you. Maybe now is not the time to answer ... Maybe it is still cottonwool time ... I mean treating yourself very gently only doing whatever movement that will help your shoulder recover.
Maybe put off the whole ambulance thing til you have energy to face it, but surely they should be checking up the correctness of calls before sending them out, especially in the country ... its crazy.
Dont mean to set you off with frustration of it all.
I first heard about "embracing" one's pain in a personal development workshop when I was quite young. At that time I had not experienced much pain.
A similar way of looking at it..... maybe
It seems mad to embrace pain, but I think it is do with muscle tensing or compensating .... If we get het up ... mentally reject our experience ... we are also rejecting our own selves or bodies ... because that is where the problem is located ...
or something like that ...
I had a lot of intense pain at one time ... now I have chronic mild ... which is easily set off into the other ... which I try and avoid at all costs ...
I have found looking at art and pictures helpful ways to manage pain ... as it "transports" and gives moments when our being is not screaming out ...
Hope things turn around soon, but it seems it will be slow ... like turning the Queen Mary ...???
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