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[ArraDreaming]

Omg what the hell I was gone for like 4 hours chill people

[Former-Member]

Hi @ArraDreaming @tyme 

Sorry about that

I think @Owlunar reply was from another message.

I hope you had a good few hours away.

Is your day going alright?

[ArraDreaming]

Whatever I’m not really in the mood right now

[Former-Member]

Hi @ArraDreaming 

It sounds like today has been draining and a late night last night.

That does affect our moods

I hope you have a nice dinner with the kids and relax.

Time for you to recharge.

It has been nice chatting to you

[ArraDreaming]

So when else am I meant to post them?? @Owlunar what do you actually want me to do

[ArraDreaming]

Evetyones bugging me including my own family

[ArraDreaming]

And also the fact that I can’t swear here

[Owlunar]

I'm only trying to help @ArraDreaming 

However - I read some of your posts about gardening - and that's really interesting - I am going there now to read some more at my computer - where it is easier to read because the screen on my phone is a bit small.

That was really good writing - thanks

Owlunar

[ArraDreaming]

@Owlunar @Former-Member

I know you are trying to help, and I’m sorry for getting angry or rude and defensive. i really do appreciate it that you have tried to help me and also recognise that I’m not in the best place when I post sometkmes
Honestly I do appreciate it
I’m sorry I don’t show it
I don’t mean to push you away I don’t want to do that
💚

[Owlunar]

Thanks for that @ArraDreaming 

I do understand - I have had anxiety attacks myself - I had one this week when I saw the different dentist for dental surgery - I have a phobia and it's totally unreasonable to sweat and shake during a dental consultation but it happened. I am having the surgery done under a general anaesthetic with a different surgeon.

So I get it - and I looking for what you wrote about gardening and can't find it easily though I will keep looking. My daughter worked in horticulture for all her working life - she has had to retired because of spinal injuries - she loved it though and she has a wonderful garden.

I have a small courtyard - and a brown elbow - but I love my little garden and have a gardener come in and work on it every few weeks - I also have a large pencil pine in my front garden and this year I have some Christmas lights to put on it - I am looking forward to that as other people on the block have Christmas lights too. It's great to share the love.

Thanks again Jay - I am looking forward to finding what you posted about gardens - what I did read was really interesting

Owlunar