Something’s not right
That really does all sound intolerable at present @WIP 
I know there are really no words right now that can help but I am here listening and sitting with you. I always found there was a glimmer of comfort in knowiing others were by my side here so I hope that helps you a little too 
This period you are going through is horrible and I am very much hearing you about the lack of outside support. As for the med changes - I totally get that ...had too many myself to count but finally found ones that helped. That was just the beginning though - there were a lot of down days and trying to just get through for a looong time. Keep talking to us here and when you are able to reach out again for that support. Have you contacted the SANE helpcentre to help you? They may be able to direct you to those in your area that can help. They are also great to talk things through with for a little extra support. I have used the Helpcentre a lot over my journey and I can honestly say they made a massive difference for me - no pressure of course but I highly recommend them if you have not already utilised that avenue.
Hey @WIP good on you, that is an amazing step. I hope it's a helpful process for you, and also remember to take breaks if you start feeling frustrated or overwhelmed. And of course we're here for you along the way
In my own safety plan I have some stuff that's just the little things... Like watching leaves fall in autumn or enjoying the squishy texture of a marshmallow melting in my mouth. The little things might only bring little pleasures, but sometimes that's enough.
