@Queenie Chocolate mudcake? Mmmmmm. Whenever I have chocolate mudcake in the house I seem to end up eating it for breakfast, so the fact that you've waited until dinner is pretty impressive...unless of course you had it for breakfast AND dinner...which is probably what I would do 
I totally hear what you are saying about holding onto the hope of having a nurturing family. When I say I ditched my family, I actually only ditched my brother and sister because my parents had already both died. It is the most natural thing in the world to want a loving family. We are biologically hardwired to live in groups - with the family being the most central of those groups. It is understandable that you can't forget what your father said to you - that is an awful thing to say to anyone 
Happy birthday @Queenie. Family are like the friends you didn't choose. They're in you're life for this reason, but you can decide on how you interact with the. Your chosen friends though, are the family that you do choose.
Vanilla latte coming up @natureoflife. Sorry to hear that you're not feeling great
@Phoenix_Rising, I sit at my lap top with pen and paper and takes notes to keep up with people! Keeping track of conversations is tricky. 
Enoying the cake and coffee...
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SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.